Hi ladies. I haven’t been on here much lately, as I’ve been trying not to stress or read up on anything too much. But I’m pretty devastated at the moment and in need of a little support. I know many of you have been in my current place. We just went through a full cycle and today is OTD. I’ve been getting positives on hpt since 5dpt and they’ve been getting progressively darker. Even last night was a glaring positive. Well, today at the clinic for my beta, I started a full period with cramping. Great timing. So, I know whatever the nurse tells me about my blood results later today, this is not going to end well. I’m even angry that I think the hcg is going to be high enough that they make me return this weekend for a repeat test, just to prove what I already know. I’m sitting in my office balling at the moment.
I think the hardest part of all this is I’m blaming having the flu with a high fever at 7 and 8 dpt on this failure. Even my nurse says that fever is pretty tough on embryos. We transferred a high quality expanded blast, and everything seemed to be going well up until that point.
We do have one frozen embryo, so at least we have that (and I’m VERY thankful for that, don’t get me wrong). We also have our beautiful son on which to focus, and he’s a great distraction. He was our one frostie from our first cycle, so I’m trying to be optimistic. My husband just texted me that everything will work out when it is supposed to. As much as I know he’s right, it’s hard to get to that point.