Shayhalliday
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I miscarried my first last march. Almost a year now and instead of getting easier-- it's just getting harder.
Since our loss, my periods still haven't showed up. I've only taken Provera two times. The first time it only made me spot for several days and the second time I had a full blown period. I thought maybe that was my body going to kick start ovulation (I guess I was just being optomistic).
My doctor put me on 500mg of Metformin. I've tried losing weight but I've gained about 50 lbs since my miscarriage even though I eat healthy. The weight gain is making me depressed. Seeing all of my friends become pregnant is making me depressed. Living 700 miles away from my family and friends is also making me depressed. And even more so, the fact that my body at age 23 isn't doing what a normal young girls body should do is killing me. I've been with my DF for over 3 years. He has a son from a previous marriage who he only gets to see for 4 days every other month. It bothers me that I am having such a hard time giving him his second child. He says over and over how it hurts him that he couldn't see his son take his first steps, hear his first words ect.
Being the oldest of 6 children, my youngest sister being 6 years old- I've had the mommy fantasies for as long as I can remember. I am always thinking about becoming pregnant. Every month the lack of my period always reminds me that it just isn't happening especially because it took us 2 years to get pregnant the first time just to lose the baby 8 weeks into it.
I'm sorry for going on and on. I just needed to get this out and pretty much all of my friends are mothers/pregnant and I don't want to unload onto them.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist for anxiety and depression (been involved in a lawsuit from a car accident I was in for the past 3 years). The case is dragging and I'm just a mess with everything life is dumping on me.
Since our loss, my periods still haven't showed up. I've only taken Provera two times. The first time it only made me spot for several days and the second time I had a full blown period. I thought maybe that was my body going to kick start ovulation (I guess I was just being optomistic).
My doctor put me on 500mg of Metformin. I've tried losing weight but I've gained about 50 lbs since my miscarriage even though I eat healthy. The weight gain is making me depressed. Seeing all of my friends become pregnant is making me depressed. Living 700 miles away from my family and friends is also making me depressed. And even more so, the fact that my body at age 23 isn't doing what a normal young girls body should do is killing me. I've been with my DF for over 3 years. He has a son from a previous marriage who he only gets to see for 4 days every other month. It bothers me that I am having such a hard time giving him his second child. He says over and over how it hurts him that he couldn't see his son take his first steps, hear his first words ect.
Being the oldest of 6 children, my youngest sister being 6 years old- I've had the mommy fantasies for as long as I can remember. I am always thinking about becoming pregnant. Every month the lack of my period always reminds me that it just isn't happening especially because it took us 2 years to get pregnant the first time just to lose the baby 8 weeks into it.
I'm sorry for going on and on. I just needed to get this out and pretty much all of my friends are mothers/pregnant and I don't want to unload onto them.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist for anxiety and depression (been involved in a lawsuit from a car accident I was in for the past 3 years). The case is dragging and I'm just a mess with everything life is dumping on me.
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