i feel so down just now. when i found out i was pregnant and started being really ill i got sacked from my job. (been to see someone about that situation and nothing can be 'done' as i was only there a short time) my OH was very understanding and was more concerned that me and baby were ok. just this past week or so i have been feeling better. since i lost my job i have spent everything i have. sitting well in the red at the bank, now we are just living on OHs wage and its not going to last long. all i hear just now is how much money we are going through. now hes refusing to pay for things. my phone bill is due and he says its just not going to get paid, same with the net and land line. i went to the job centre and got told i wasnt entitled to anything as i was self employed before that last job and something to do with paying tax and national insurance means i dont get squat. so i'm going to have to look for a job. no one is going to take me on being 17 weeks pregnant. and we live in the middle of no where. which doent help. its not like there are a lot of options open to me. i just want to crawl into a hole n the ground and die just now. i think it would be a hell of a lot easier.