Just a little hello...

[yazzy]

I have been reading all your posts over the last few days and they have really bought me some comfort as I know I am not alone going through this.

My story...after 1 year off bcp we finally fell pregnant (admittedly it was my 2nd normal'ish cycle) we were over the moon. All was going smoothly or so I thought, we went for our first scan last Wednesday when I should have been 11 weeks only to be told our baby hadn't grown past 7 weeks. Shellshocked was an understatement. I can't thank the hospital enough for being so kind and understanding. I opted for medical management and after taking the tablet on Wednesday I went back to hospital on Friday. I ended up staying in overnight but the nurses were all so lovely to me. I have been home 3 days and am still sore but the pain and bleeding is slowly easing up. I go back for a scan in 1 week and I pray everything has gone so we can move on.

My first thought was how could I ever ttc again after that experience but today I am having a good day and I know we will try again. I have no idea how long it will take to get my first AF (my 2 cycles 1 before my bfp and the one I fell pregnant were 43 days. Its going to be a scary journey but I hope we get our miracle soon

I hope everyone on here is bearing up and looking forward positively for a brighter future

 

[crazylilth1ng]

I am sorry for your loss Yazzy... I am in the unenviable position of waiting for a second scan to confirm the death of my baby (they were pretty sure but I guess they have to give it a second scan at my earlier gestation)... I also lost a baby at 9 weeks last year, so I know how you feel. I too can't wait for it to be over to move on and try again...

I liked your comment about looking forward positively for a brighter future

 

[yazzy]

I am also sorry to hear you are waiting for your scan, what an awful time. My thought on the brighter future and thinking positively is that this is the only way forward for me. I will let myself grieve and be sad when I need to but I will also not feel guilty when I have happier moments. I do believe the more positive we are then we will get positive things. I really feel for you going through possibly your 2nd loss.

 

[crazylilth1ng]

Thank you, I do feel very depressed and very bitter, however, it does help to think that my DH and I have no problems conceiving, and this current mc is the only "probably unhealthy" baby I have conceived, my last mc was due to an illness that causes mc, the baby was apparently healthy which was a huge blow.

I really like your attitude ... And I in no way underestimate your pain just because you choose to be positive!

It is actually the due date of my first angel today, so its not a great day for me at all...

 

[pinkflamingo]

I am so sorry for your loss. I think you have a very similar outlook to myself. Going through a miscarriage is an awful thing, but you do have to try and look to the brighter times that will come in the future.

We had been ttc for 14 months when we got our BFP and then it was taken away from us a number of weeks later. I have only just lost the baby after 8 weeks of waiting, and so we are now just waiting to be able to try again. It does feel a like being back at square one, and DH has had poor sperm results come back from our fertility specialist, so it's coming at us from all directions really! But through all of this I refuse to be defeated. I am positive that we will be pregnant again soon and that we will hold our beautiful baby tightly in our arms.

It will happen!! and for you too!!

Good luck hun xx

 

[pinkflamingo]

crazylilth1ng - I am so sorry for what you have had to go through. Sending you lots of hugs xxx

 

[yazzy]

Pinkflamingo - yes you do sound like you think the same way as me. As awful as the last week has been it has really pulled myself and my OH together. I really appreciate him and have actually seen him in a new light after the way he has been caring for me and helping me recover physically.

I too am sure my body just wasn't ready, something didn't gel quite right but we will go on to have healthly babes in the future. I am thinking of going to a health spa for some relaxation treatment next month, I am staying calm and positive as I want to do the best for my body so it is able to get back on track. It is not to say I am not devastated, I am but I do believe what is meant to be will be and there is nothing I can do about the inbetween.

Crazylilth1ng - we will all deal with things differently, the main thing is making sure you have support and can talk about it. By talking (a lot) to my mum, OH and friends I feel a weight is slowly lifting from my shoulders.

We will all get there in our own way and own time xx