Hey hun, I can't
entirely relate to everything you've written, but I can some it, and I assure you things will get better =) ! When me and my OH found out I was pregnant his instant reaction was
abortion. Not because thats what he genuinely wanted - but because he was scared and worried and fright makes people say/do silly things! It was never an option for me to do that and I never did so now we have a beautiful little girl on the way!
Until about 2 months later I was a complete wreck that he didn't want her even after constant reassurance that he did and that he was going to stand by me whatever! on top of that I was living in a complete
SHITHOLE. I was in a shared house with friends (yes disgusting friends!!! my room was the only clean place in the house!) and when I spoke to my housing advisor they said it'd be better for me stay there until AFTER baby was born so that it'd be quicker for us to get a council house! Now let me tell you, that was NO house to bring up a baby even if it would have only been a month or even inhabit humans! Let alone babies! So that naturally scared the living shit outta me and motivated me to do everything i could to make everything right for our baby.
My OH's parents were fine with my pregnancy but some of the things his grandparents said really upset me like they were "dissappointed" because matt was "throwing his life away"! Luckaly his other grandparents were fine
phew! And my parents and family have always been 100% there for me through anything and this didn't change a thing.
It was one day that I just cracked and sent me into mummy mode and then EVERYTHING got sorted within 2 weeks. I stopped worrying and started planning and it was the best thing I ever did! Also me and matt worked as a team which is sooo much better than working alone. I told him what we were going to do and we did it! That week we had 2 house viewings and the second one we saw was
"the one" I told him we either do it right now or we can still be living how we are now til christmas after babys born (me in the shit hole him still with his dad!) so we did it! matt upped his hours so we had a bit more money after bills and rent and now we couldn't be happier
we were in within a week of viewing!
It was never an option for me to wait around for some shit council house they'd dump on us or just wait til I get benfits and let the council generally fuck us about. Now we have the most beautiful house I could have asked for and just about everything sorted for when baby comes
Trust me the sooner you quit worrying and start planning your way around obsticles the better things will become! You can't overcome hurdles while blinded with tears, so wipe them away and jump!!
If this baby doesn't motivate the both of you to drastically change your situation nothing ever will, so go go go and do what you can =D !
And if I were you I'd give that landlord a call and give him a piece of my mind! Trust me hun you need a good relationship with your landlord otherwise they won't think twice about kicking you out if your short on rent one month and he sounds like he isn't very reliable either
If you can find somewhere better I garentee you'll be in there within a week and not have to wait for some idiot to get his act together!
Good luck hunni =) sorry its long!!!
all the best ^_^ xxxxxxx