My best friend, is due today.....she was telling me all about how she doesn't want to be pregnant anymore and all her plans and I am trying so hard to be the friend that she needs but I so jealous of her! She has this beautiful belly, she is about to have a baby. My pregnancy was 3.5 months behind hers......I should be almost 7 months pregnant.....but I'm not and she is about to have her baby. She got pregnant a month after she got married.....I've been married for 5 years, almost I just feel like I did everything in the right order....got marrried went to school, got a good joob I did all that before considering a child.....and she did everything backwards but yet here she is about to give birth, and here I am CD3. I'm crying myself to sleep at night whileshe is eating spicey foods and taking walks and excersizing to try an enduse labor. I know that God has a plan for everything I just don't see how this is going to fit into a plan. Why did she get to keep her baby and I lost mine....I did everything right. I know if its ment to be its ment to be....I just find myself struggling more and more everyday that she is closer to birth. Its just so hard to watch her when I know that that isn't me. I'm trying so hard to just be happy for her but the happier I am for her, the sadder I am for myself. She's due ANY minute And then when her son is born.....I will be able to hold him....and help her when she needsit.....its going to be so hard........ I don't understand why bad things happen to good people. I just want my baby back.