Just one more

[momwithbabies]

I posted this on another thread, but no responses yet:


I just want one more child. I'm a mom of two (boy and girl) precious kids, and being Catholic, I always assumed I would have a big family. I guessed wrong. I'm 31, been TTC (seriously and lazily) for at least 4 years now. WTH?

I'm tired of it all, but I can't make peace with what I've got. There is something seriously wrong with me in the head.

Anybody else feel like this or similar? Am I just being a brat and God is punishing me?

Thank you, ladies, for my venting. Anyone know any good prayers that ask for peace with what you have?

 

[kealz]

I would try not to feel like you are being punished, otherwise why would you have already been blessed with 2 children?

I think this call is a mother nature one - have you looked into what fertility help is available to you?

You might have to either think that this is God's plan for you, to have 2 children or if you'd prefer to have some influence then i'd go to the doctors or fertility clinic.

 

[momwithbabies]

We've tried very few interventions as my husband isn't willing to spend thousands of dollars for something that might just not be meant to be. It's frustrating at times, but I understand his point. And I'm not into extreme interventions either, especially having two kids already. I think I'm at a low point right now. Probably because my kids are growing right in front of my eyes!!! It's amazing how fast the time goes. I am blessed for what I have, and I know that. But TTC has a cruel hold on me.

 

[sn0wbunnie]

You said you've been trying both seriously & lazily. I feel like this is something you gotta go all in for & you won't get results. I always had the assumption that getting pregnancy is "easy" but it certainly is not. So maybe that's why it hasn't happened? Maybe God knows that you're not all in?

 

[momwithbabies]

There's no way that my husband and I could go full force TTC for 4 years, but I applaud anyone who can. I also know, we have tried, very hard at times. It didn't happen, and it wasn't like a one-time thing. I think maybe the way I worded my initial post is confusing. I say TTC seriously and lazily because there comes a point every so often when you have to take a break. Or at least we need the breaks. Otherwise, our marriage suffers, and my husband and I end up arguing about it. I hope that makes sense.

 

[kealz]

I understand what you're saying. Fx'd that nature takes it's course for you soon.