This is probably a common issue, but sometimes a girl just has to let it out. In September my little boy will be born. Ive longed for this for some time and weve gone through so much to have him. Weve had 6 painful and upsetting miscarriages to get to this point. Other pregnant women at work (were all due around the same time) are all having issues. One poor woman went into labour at 23 + 5 and the baby didnt make it. Another has been put on bed rest because of leaking waters. Shes due the day before me. So its a tense time right now. I know everything is fine with Bug. He is doing so well. Even though I cant feel him move at all, I feel him kick all the time. Just when he seems to know Im stressing. When i was little, my mom told me about the poem "Not Waving, But Drowning". https://www.artofeurope.com/smith/smi1.htm About how everyone on the beach thought the man was waving, so they were all waving back, when in actual fact, he was drowning. She told me that sometimes, when someone looks like everything is hunky dory and is happy and looks so well adjusted, they aren't. It's just like a face they throw out to everyone so no-one thinks they are drowning - that they just can't do it. Kinda like the song "Tears of a clown". I just feel like Im drowning, or going to, with all the additional responsibilities. Im a mom, or at least soon will be an actual mom. I know its normal, to have these fears etc that Im gonna fall flat on my face, but its harder then I thought. I've talked with Mike (hubby) about this, and he's tried to reassure me, and for a while it works, then it's like the re-assurance wears off. The chorus from Over my Head (Cable Car) by Fray keeps going through my head. Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime (S)he's on my mind (S)he's on my mind What Im struggling with is just the feelings of complete inadequacy. So, it seems that for today at least, my fears have the best of me. Anyone else feeling something similar?