lonely

[heva510]

how do u fill the emptiness that a mmc leaves it is now nearly 6 months since i lost my twins at 14 wks and i still feel so down and lonely no one seems to understand, last week was there due date and i can't get that out of my head i should be sat with my twins now they should be a week old , my cycles are all over the place still and have been told by dr's that i am prob not ovulating as cycles are to short, i need to feel a bit more positive and get out of this dark hole i am currently in, sorry to go on i just needed to write my feelings down somewhere where ppl understand heather x

 

[Lucky4]

I am so sorry you feel so low. I had mc at 9 weeks in November. After the d&c I felt sadness but also relief that the op was over. We ttc straight away because I thought this would help. I also bought a memory box with a scan photo and a little blue outfit( found out with c'some analysis it was a boy)the first few months I was obsessed with ttc which I think was my way of avoiding thinking of the loss. Day 1-3 of af every month was awful and the worst I felt was the month of my due date. On my due date I bought another little blue outfit and it helped a bit, not sure why. I spent 9 months ttc and eventually decided I was too old for more children, and put the dream to rest. Found out a week later I was preg and now 5 weeks.I don't know if you are ttc but I think whether you are or not, the heart heals itself over time. Getting preg again isn't necessarily the cure and for me it got better slowly after my due date passed. I hope you feel better soon

 

[heva510]

i'm not ttc as twins dad left me he was seeing someone else along its been a long lonely journey and as much as i want another it just isn't possible atm x

 

[OnErth&InHvn]

I lost Wylder last year (not quite a year yet) and I didnt do a D&C. The loneliness? Its not gone yet. I still feel like I want to run into a hole and disappear. I still want to scream " dont you know i lost a baby"... I have many good days now, but the bad ones, they still feel as if it is the day i held Wylder in my hands and said goodbye.

 

[Elmodoggie]

The emptiness I feel is longing and hurtful right now I would be 6 months alone....I understand, and I do comletely understand when you say the people around you "don't get it", unless you go through it, you don't get it!

 

[heva510]

thanks all just seem to be so down atm its unreal i feel like screamin at ppl because they are so insensitive x

 

[Mummy2Angel.]

Just wanted to send you a big hug , im here whenever hun x

 

[ncmommy]

I'm so sorry for your losses and what you are going through. The emptiness may never go away but I promise it will get better.

Just know that we all understand what you are going through and you are not alone.

 

[shocker]

Im so sorry for your loss I lost my baby at 14 and 4 and in ocober it will be a year, I still think about him all the time.I was also not with his dad anymore and I understand how hard it is, wondering If they even care, wishing someone felt the same about this amazing little person/people that you do. I often found myself frustrated and upset because although my heart ached to hold my baby I couldn't and knew I wouldn't for several years because I have no partner. It's a long road and yes it's often lonely but whenever I feel a bit lonely I look up to the sky at night and see how brightly the stars shine and I realise I could never be alone because I've got my little prince watching over ne and looking after me. Your babies will always be with you, hve you made a memory box? I also found this very helpful and it gives me comfort that I can take it out and hold his things close and remind myself he's never far away. Hope your doing ok, feel free to pm me if you ever need a chat xx

 

[hippylittlej]

not much I can say really other than we are here to talk.

 

[reversal]

im so sorry for your loss

 

[lilwelsh1]

I am so sorry for your loss
Lonely, I feel that too, and when i do i pop on here. theres always someone or many someones who understand. Im married but my husband doesn't 'do' talking, if i cant get to the laptop i write in my diary so i can work my feelings out. sometimes it just feels like old news to those around me. thankfully there are so many lovely people on this site.