I'm having another doctor's appointment in two weeks, a long one, so I can start things off, getting scans done and so forth, organising who I will see during my pregnancy, care plans, etc.
My GP is super sweet and very eccentric, and I sometimes see her on my afternoon walks around a nearby lake. There's the doctor/patient divide, still, but we're pretty friendly and when I showed her the pregnancy test being all heavily positive, she let out a cry of joy and was so happy for me, as happy as any of my sisters were, it was so sweet! I really feel like I'm in the care of someone who cares about me not just as a patient but a human being, and that's so important.
My only hiccup so far is my antidepressants. I suffer from clinical depression and Generalised Anxiety Disorder, so I'm on fluoxetine and amitryptiline. It's the lowest doses you can get, but she said they're both category C drugs, and I feel SO guilty that I'm taking them through the pregnancy.
I just haven't been off them for a LONG time, and I don't remember a time when I wasn't on some sort of antidepressant. I'd try being off them but I was in the emergency ward earlier on in the year with extreme anxiety and depression when I tried to increase my dose of fluoxetine. Thankfully I've had a LOT of lifechanging therapy and have worked really hard on myself. I'm glad this accidental pregnancy happened after that point in time. I was just coming back into myself and being at peace with the ups and downs of life when I fell pregnant.
Anyway, I wish I wasn't on these pills but I don't think I'd do well off them. My sister and my Mum both said that there are going to be hundreds of things I'll do that I'll feel guilty about during pregnancy, like stumbling, accidentally eating the wrong thing, etc. I can only pray that my medications don't cause any lasting issues for whoever I'm carrying within me. I'd never forgive myself if they did!
My pregnancy symptoms have been pretty good, other than that. Cramping, moodiness, endo pains (I have endometriosis), giant and heavy boobs which are painful to touch, fatigue, headache, runny nose, extra thirsty, lots of peeing, funny appetite. Thankfully no nausea yet, which is odd because my sisters had that sort of thing when they were pregnant. My Mum didn't though, she took to pregnancy really well and had a super easy time of it. I'm praying to God that I'm just taking after her and nothing is wrong!