wtbmummy
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This is very much emotional ramblings so I am sorry.
Ok so we always wanted two children. Due to kidney problems I have we felt lucky enough to have one but I desperatly want a second for ds sake. (I was an only child) I went for tests and scans etc... And they said if I want another it has to be NOW!!
So I came off depo n back on pill to regulate my body again. I have been taking folic acid everyday for over a month. We have thought of names and what we will do differently second time round. It's all been planned for later this year.
However.... Are financal situation isn't say "ideal" atm. Infact the inlaws have now offered to help reduce our monthly outgoings. This is great (but i feel terrible n so does dh that we are in this situation)
Initally I thought well great we can def go ahead with no.2 but thats really not the case, if we have no.2 then I will have to give up work completely (although 90% of my earnings goes on childcare but i had to go back to get my qualification) it means I would be out of work for potentially 2-3years at which point I could go back term time only and bring in a better wage as pay for less childcare. In that time we will have TWO children to care for plus I the only income I would have would be for the children. (Child benefit) so basically nil. Dh has got a better job now but will be a while before he gets his promotion. (Year or two) With our debts cleared we could still live comfortably which is much more than right now.
The worst part was when fil said "one step forward, two steps back" meaning if they helped us which solved a lot of issues but then we cant save with me out of work n having another mouth to feed. I completely understand what hes saying but does that mean my son has to be on his own???
The more and more i think about this the more it seems certain that for us to ever get a morgage then we will have to save every penny and there is no way at all i can take two years out of work. Which in turn means no second child
I just feel soooo torn, I want a second child but if we do will we ever get out of private renting?? I feel so sad but at the same time I love my son so much I would be happy for it to just be us three forever.
If you made it to the end of my ramblings thank you. I just dont know how i feel about all this. Its great for the help or we would be in a worse position but i dont want them to feel like they have helped us so I can not work for two years
Ok so we always wanted two children. Due to kidney problems I have we felt lucky enough to have one but I desperatly want a second for ds sake. (I was an only child) I went for tests and scans etc... And they said if I want another it has to be NOW!!
So I came off depo n back on pill to regulate my body again. I have been taking folic acid everyday for over a month. We have thought of names and what we will do differently second time round. It's all been planned for later this year.
However.... Are financal situation isn't say "ideal" atm. Infact the inlaws have now offered to help reduce our monthly outgoings. This is great (but i feel terrible n so does dh that we are in this situation)
Initally I thought well great we can def go ahead with no.2 but thats really not the case, if we have no.2 then I will have to give up work completely (although 90% of my earnings goes on childcare but i had to go back to get my qualification) it means I would be out of work for potentially 2-3years at which point I could go back term time only and bring in a better wage as pay for less childcare. In that time we will have TWO children to care for plus I the only income I would have would be for the children. (Child benefit) so basically nil. Dh has got a better job now but will be a while before he gets his promotion. (Year or two) With our debts cleared we could still live comfortably which is much more than right now.
The worst part was when fil said "one step forward, two steps back" meaning if they helped us which solved a lot of issues but then we cant save with me out of work n having another mouth to feed. I completely understand what hes saying but does that mean my son has to be on his own???
The more and more i think about this the more it seems certain that for us to ever get a morgage then we will have to save every penny and there is no way at all i can take two years out of work. Which in turn means no second child
I just feel soooo torn, I want a second child but if we do will we ever get out of private renting?? I feel so sad but at the same time I love my son so much I would be happy for it to just be us three forever.
If you made it to the end of my ramblings thank you. I just dont know how i feel about all this. Its great for the help or we would be in a worse position but i dont want them to feel like they have helped us so I can not work for two years