loosing hope.

[skye_1212]

I think I am ready too give up. As much as I want a baby. This isnt really happeneing. I have been disappointed to many times. Really wanted to have a rainbow baby. Anyone have felt this way?

 

[MiaMama]

Sorry I are feeling this way.
I understand you so well.
Every cycle is more and more difficult... Every cycle I am in tears now...
I feel like it will never be my turn to get pregnant.

 

[napamermaid]

Whats a rainbow baby?

Its such a hard journey, every month i get bfn i say no more its too upsetting but then if i dont keep going ill never get pregnant

 

[MiaMama]

Rainbow baby is the one after a miscarriage.

I agree with you Alfiecat, every month is so difficult but we can't stop otherwise there is no chance to get pregnant one day...

 

[2ducks]

Skye- so sorry you are feeling this way. Have you thought about getting some counseling to help process these feelings. I have had counseling in the past and it can really help work through some difficult emotions. Its ok to switch to NTNP for a while until you are ready to start trying again.

Regardless of what you choose, you are always amongst friends here.

 

[lisap2008]

I have been trying for years ,one of the things that are helping me is the fertility prayers and affirmations on youtube, plus I am doing everything I can to help it happen , I cut sugar from my diet and am taking supplements for egg health.

 

[rose.]

I know exactly how you feel
But there is hope - when we were TTC with our son, every month I would get excited thinking I was pregnant and then cry for days when AF arrived. I never thought it would happen and then, just when I was beginning to think we should give up, I got my bfp. My son is now almost 3 and we are trying for number 2. It is taking a long time and I am getting to the stage of despair again, so I really hope it happens for us soon. It feels like everyone is pregnant except for me.
Big hugs - I hope it happens for you soon x

 

[pandi77]

Yes it's normal so allow yourself to grieve. Every few years or so I would give up and when I turned 35 I read some books that have me a new perspective and the willpower to continue on with a new plan. When I finally got pregnant after many years and didn't have another chemical it ended up being ectopic and it just about drove me over the edge

Once you feel up to (or if) trying again check out taking charge of your fertility if you haven't already. There are a lot of things we can do as women to have a better part in conceiving and improve our chances (and overall wellness). Good luck and hugs

 

[mommyclausen]

i completely agree with you all for 3 1/2 years me and my husband tried everything, six months of clomid then a surgery that removed my right ovary and tube and then the devastating news that i would never have a child then a miracle happened and our beautiful angel was gifted to us before i found out i was pregnant i was so depressed i had to go to counseling and they were scared the depression would take over me, i have endometriosis and i am a cancer survivor. and now that my daughter is nearly 2 we want another one and here we are back to trying for over 6 months and each month it breaks my heart everyone i know, everyone im related to and all are pregnant popping them out like its nothing while i beg for another one it hurts but stay strong