Lord, why not me?

[Nissie]

Hi ladies,

I'm new here don't know if this is the right place to post. I was just hoping to vent, and maybe one of you ladies can relate. I'm 29 years old I first got pregnant at 19 it was a bad pregnancy I knew I would lose my baby once it was born, he had no kidneys everyone told me I should have an abortion but decided I wouldn't do that to my child and let this take it's course. My baby was born and passed away 2 days after :'(. This was a long grieving process, after a couple of years I met a wonderful man and we TTC for a couple of years with no luck. He was Ill and passed away 3 1/2 years ago. Another grieving process. Time went by and I met my now husband which I married on 9/10/2011. We have been TTC for a year now and nothing. Overall I have been TTC for 8+ years. My husband is very supportive, but I'm running out of faith, strength and hope. BTW I forgot to mentioned that when I had my baby 10 yrs ago my sister was pregnant too, a very difficult time, I was in the hospital grieving while she was having my nephew. Don't get me wrong I love him to death, but now she recently had my other nephew 3days ago, 3 of my friends are expecting and honestly I dont know how much more I can take. I can't read another I'm pregnant announcement, don't get me wrong I'm do happy for them, but it leaves me wondering.. Why not me?

 

[LizMcD]

I'm so sorry for your losses, you r a very strong lady. Never lose hope.

We are all in a similar position so this forum should bring you lots of encouragement and support.

I really hope u get your much deserved bfp soon

Xx

 

[Nissie]

Thank you so much Liz McD I truly appreciate your response. It's my first day here and I'm already feeling more hope and support from all the wonderful ladies here. I wish you with much sincerity the best in all your journeys

 

[rosebud_01_99]

HI there,

im so sorry to hear of your loss, i went through 3 early miscarriages and really grieved for them , i cant begin to imagine the pain you went through, ((hugs)).

This site has been a life saver for me recently although I have been ttc 16yrs I find a lot of support from ladies who have been ttc a lot less time on here, they have a empathy and understanding that i find lacking on a lot of other support sites. thank you ladies.

ps i often wonder why not me as well. it all seems so unfair.but we are very strong ladies that we are still living life and persuing or dreams after everything we have been through.x
rosebud

 

[roothy]

Hi Nissie

So so sorry for your losses. YOu are a strong woman to have got through all life has thrown at you.
My journey is shorter but I understand that 'why me?' feeling
I met my OH late in life, started TTC mid 2009, MC earlier this year. Still trying and currently on clomid. I am 41 now and feel my clock ticking loudly. When I found I was pregnant at beg of the year, a woman same age as me at work was pregnant- she went on to have a lovely healthy boy and I am happy for her - but I cant bear to listen about the baby. I work in a doctors surgery and see people requesting termination or having children taken off them by social services....... Why do they get pregnant and not me??

YOu will find lots of support on here - there are some amazing ladies here and I dont know how I would have got through this year so far without this site

 

[cooch]

God love you Nissie. You have been trough so much, no one should have to go through what you have.

I am still TTC#1, and I doubt I will every truly give up. We have never had a sniff of BFP. Maybe take a break but don't give up. It is so hard hearing other people are allowed something so precious and a lot of them will never truly know how lucky they are. If its something you want don't give up. x

 

[Nissie]

Dear Roothy,

Thank you for your message, I appreciate it. Dont give up, I am sure Lord will soon bless us all. At times I think I should be content with what we are giving but then I think about it and realize that things like this, like a having a wonderful child should not be gaven up on. Yes its hard but I just think of how wonderful it can be to have a little child telling you one day Mommie I love you... I will pray for all you wonderful ladies. Please keep me posted on you TTC journey. Much Love and prayers sent your way

 

[Nissie]

Hi Cooch,

Thank you so much for your message. I feel exactly the same way as you. We may feel weak at times, but deep inside we know we will never give up. A precious child is somethign to great to ever give up on. Be stronm hun, and I truly hope you get your BFP soon. Keep me posted. Love and prayers to you.

 

[Nissie]

Dear Rosebud,

Hun im so sorry for all you have been through as well. I am just truly blessed and thankful that the Lord above pointed us in the right direction to find this place and be able to have so much love and support among eachother. I know sometimes we do have family or our spouse to count on, but sometimes its truly not the same. We are all going through the same and we all know how we feel. Just know you can count on my prayers for your BFP and a wonderful child to com true. Please keep me posted. I wish you well and if you need another lending ear and shoulder hun. I will be here.

 

[Armywife84]

Very well said, you should NEVER give up on your dreams.

We can't be strong 24-7. I believe it's perfectly acceptable to show a bit of weakness from time to time.

My condolences for your loss, .