Losing the plot...

[tuesdaysbaby]

Hi Ladies, I hope I can find some buddies that feel they can share my sorrow today… not that I want anyone to be unhappy! But… it would be nice not to feel alone.

I'm not having such a great day. This - despite it being my husband's birthday (he's not home from work and it's nearly 6pm though) and having a generally good day, until the afternoon when there was an incident! I'm a teacher and it can really muck up the feel of your whole day when a child decides to be horrible to you personally!

I also feel that we are out again for this month. I know that I've ovulated as my CM has dried up but I don't know when I did as we avoided OPKs and temping this month. I'm just feeling like this hasn't worked again, I'm going to be doing this forever and I'm destined to never get a BFP.

Does anyone else feel a bit like this, or has anyone ever felt like this and then got a BFP? I know I've posted in this in TTC no. 1 but that's where I find I fit the most.

I'm ever hopeful that this won't be too long of a process for us but I just think I CANNOT cope with another friend announcing a pregnancy or seeing the baby photos on Facebook. I just can't do it.


xx TB

 

[lola33]

Hi Ladies, I hope I can find some buddies that feel they can share my sorrow today… not that I want anyone to be unhappy! But… it would be nice not to feel alone.

I'm not having such a great day. This - despite it being my husband's birthday (he's not home from work and it's nearly 6pm though) and having a generally good day, until the afternoon when there was an incident! I'm a teacher and it can really muck up the feel of your whole day when a child decides to be horrible to you personally!

I also feel that we are out again for this month. I know that I've ovulated as my CM has dried up but I don't know when I did as we avoided OPKs and temping this month. I'm just feeling like this hasn't worked again, I'm going to be doing this forever and I'm destined to never get a BFP.

Does anyone else feel a bit like this, or has anyone ever felt like this and then got a BFP? I know I've posted in this in TTC no. 1 but that's where I find I fit the most.

I'm ever hopeful that this won't be too long of a process for us but I just think I CANNOT cope with another friend announcing a pregnancy or seeing the baby photos on Facebook. I just can't do it.


xx TB

Hello hello !

I know it can be long and sometimes we lose hope and all. I understand how much it must be hard to wait every month and never get a bpf. It's my 3rd month trying, so my patience is ok.. but I know how I would feel after years of that waiting.
How long have you been TTC? are your cycles regular?
Maybe it's good you decided not to opk and chart for a while, sometimes we need to stop focusing too much and let life do it's job.. and think about something else.
be strong ! you'll get your bfp !

 

[bexxx85]

Hey love,

You just have to believe it will happen and lots of baby dancing to boot. I am the same, every month is a BFN. I have been trying for a year since coming off BCP but my hormones are messed up

I suspect a close friend of mine is pregnant at the moment which bums me out though I would be delighted obviously. Once you are trying for a baby it seems everyone else gets pregnant!

Where there is a will there is a way, believe it will happen. I'm just trying to relax and with this new attitude i'm quietly praying my time will come, as will yours.

Hugs to you, don't give up

Bex

 

[tuesdaysbaby]

Thank you so much bexxx and lola - we are "early on" in the process, this is our 3rd official month of TTC, we have waited nearly 4 years to try and in that time I've seen most of my friends have one, or two babies. I feel so left behind!

I know we haven't been trying long but my cycles are a bit all over the show - last month 28, then 26 before that, then 31, then 36, it's so hard to know what is happening - I guess my ovulation date is never the same! I have a sneaky feeling my cycle will be shorter this time around. I'm about to tick over into CD 21 and have a feeling I'm about 7 DPO judging by other signs, but I don't really know!

Thank you so much for your support - I feel like a bit of an egg for being so worried and upset this early on in the TTC journey but I am having a down day!

Fingers crossed this month of no stress and no OPKs etc. has done us well and we get our BFP after all of this sadness and feeling out!!!

Fingers crossed for all of us for those elusive BFPs xxxx

 

[mrshan]

Don't beat yourself up over a bad day, Tuesdaysbaby. This is a hard thing to do. I've had days like that where I just want to bury myself in bed, eat a quart of ice cream, and just have my tubes tied so that I'll never have to worry about the heartbreak of having another month where I wasn't pregnant. But we're stronger than that.

"Weeeee are the champions, my friends!"

 

[twinkletoes14]

Hi Ladies! I'm feeling the same like it's never gonna happen. It's so upsetting when it doesn't happen every month and I feel like everyone around me is pregnant! xx

 

[BeachyFeelin]

I know how you feel...it really, really gets me down sometimes. 6 months TTC and nothing...I feel like I'm just sitting back watching all my friends get pregnant and go on to have #2...I just want ONE!

 

[PeanutWhereRU]

Aww bless you chick. I am/was in the same mindset. I had a breaking point after af stopped in jan.. yes last af was in jan, my heart broke when I was late and had spotting then a bfn then spotted again 2 odd weeks later. I gave up opk and trying to symptom spot. EVERYTHING! I am now sticking to bd every other day and just chilling back and having a laugh again.

I took a test this morning and it was a bfn so I opened the test up and 2 minutes later I saw a second line. I knew I tampered it and laughed because in that split second I believed I was pregnant. It actually filled me with hope that one day I WILL see that second line.

keep your chin up hun and just remember that everything happens when the time is right.

 

[twinkletoes14]

I also have friends who are on baby no. 2 and that's exactly what goes through my head all I want is to have baby no. 1! I never thought it would take so long Good to know I'm not the only one who feels like this though. Fingers crossed we all get our bfp soon xx

 

[PeanutWhereRU]

I also have friends who are on baby no. 2 and that's exactly what goes through my head all I want is to have baby no. 1! I never thought it would take so long Good to know I'm not the only one who feels like this though. Fingers crossed we all get our bfp soon xx

I feel exactly the same!

 

[Khigg19]

I'm with you Tuesday! I feel like I'm out even though we BD every day since AF and I had a + OPK. I didn't notice fertile cm this month so I keep thinking I'm out (we used preseed). It seems like such a long process for those of us that want it. I've been married for 6 years and waiting was our choice, but now all these newlyweds are announcing pregnancies like it's the easiest thing ever and it feels so defeating! Keep your head up. It will happen! It has to, right?

 

[twinkletoes14]

Totally agree Khigg19! We've been married 4 years and ttc for 10 months and now I keep seeing newlyweds announcing pregnancies making it seem so easy! xx

 

[tuesdaysbaby]

Oh thank you SO much ladies! I cannot tell you how happy you made me when I quickly checked in whilst at work today! You brightened my day right up. It is nice to know that I am not going crazy, and am in fact, quite normal! Fingers crossed that the BFP goodness extends to us all this month, or very soon in the future.

I hear you too! All these newlywed couples and here we are two months shy of 4 years and nothing... I sometimes feel as though I have nothing to show for myself without a baby. Even though I know that's not true as we have lots to show for ourselves, it is easy to feel 'on the outer' as I know a lot of stuff about babies... but only from other people and online, not from my own experience.

Cannot wait to be part of that 'club' of exclusivity.

xx

 

[PeanutWhereRU]

Hey

I feel the same too in a sense that I don't have anything to show for myself. I also got married in 2010 and am a year older than you..I had a dream last night I was 4 months preggo and could feel my peanut moving in my belly. I had to make sure I had the longest lay in so I could capture the moment. It was truly special!

 

[lola33]

same here, my best friend got pregnant twice in C1... I was hoping I would get lucky too..
Lets stay positive, it's only the 3rd we are trying, I'm sure we will get it soon!!

 

[ExpectingTC]

I totally get it. One of my bestfriends got pregnant within a week of me. I lost my baby at week 10. It's been beyond hard going to all of her baby events. My SIL found out she was pregnant 4 days after I lost my pregnancy. I'm throwing her baby shower. It's been a gut wrenching process. One day at a time, it's all we can do.

 

[Khigg19]

Lol one of my friends was a virgin and got married and pregnant with TWINS the first frickin' month! Like seriously? Lucky b*tch, hahaa. I'm in cycle 2 so I'm also still hoping it happens fast/soon, but I agree, it still feels like a lifetime. I wasn't ridiculously devastated when AF showed earlier this month because, realistically, I knew, it probably wouldn't happen, but I was still disappointed. Doesn't help she was a day late, so I ran to Walmart to buy test the night before and the next morning as I was collecting my FMU, I started.

 

[PeanutWhereRU]

Lol one of my friends was a virgin and got married and pregnant with TWINS the first frickin' month! Like seriously? Lucky b*tch, hahaa.

Wow... that's an epic love story that happened between sperm and egg lol

 

[Khigg19]

Lol right! I was trying to explain ovulation, implantation, chances of pregnancy to my husband last cycle and he was a little confused about the 9 day wait from when the egg is released and possible implantation. So I used the analogy that they met and right now are drinking some coffee/getting to know each other and it all just depends if spermy wants to call eggy in a few days for a second date. He thought I was hilarious, I just blame it on constantly being consumed with the possibility! Haha. Ohh, the dreaded tww.

 

[alicea]

Having a down day today too just feel like im going to end up a crazy cat lady who cant have kids. Me and my OH have been together for 8years and we havent been using any BC for about 2yrs. We dont regularly BD (which I know isnt helping) but I just feel like we are gonna have fertility issues. My 17yr old cousin has just had a baby, saying she didnt even know she was pregnant and gave birth at home on her sofa. She had been going out getting drunk and is already bored of being a mum letting other people do all the feeds and changes. I just feel really upset cos i would give anything to have a little bundle to feed and change. I just wish i could be told 'yes you will definitely be able to have a baby'. I keep having dreams about being pregnant or breastfeeding and wake up upset that it was just a dream :'(

xxxxx