Made to feel Like a fraud :-(

[Mrskg]

Sorry ladies needed a vent! I am currently going through a chemical pregnancy which from what I'm lead to believe is a very early miscarriage x try telling my friend that x she has been with me through my whole journey and saw the bfp's last wk for herself x I wasn't as tests were really faint and I just had a feeling things were not right x I was also getting bfn on some tests x on fri night I started cramping really bad then bleeding heavy nothing like my normal af so yest morning (my 35th birthday) I called epu who said it is more than likely a bio chemical pregnancy I was more worried that it was connected to mmc in july but they have assured me it's just "another" one of these things x

So this morn in tried to go to work as I am a community carer calling off at 7am is just not an option so I dragged myself to my first call I was in agony and crying I had to tell my workmate what was wrong and she called our boss to get the rest of my work covered x fast forward to this aft my friend called me to say my workmate had called her to see how I was x my friend asked me why I had said I was having a miscarriage??? I told her that's what's a chemical pregnancy is she has made me feel like I am a fraud x she seems to think it just a late af I've tried telling her I would not have had positive tests if there was no hcg so there was a pregnancy but unfortunately it didn't stick an that this is def no normal af so i know something else is going in how can she
be so insensitive

I didn't want to tell anyone this time as I don't know if I can handle anymore sympathy feel like I've just got over everyone looking at me with sympathy after mmc in July but you'd thinks my best friend would have more
understanding!

 

[loulou10]

Aw hugs hun I thing I maybe going thru same thing not to sure intill I go docs tomos but seriously I done 5 test bfps and went hospital today with bleeding hospital made me look silly in front of sil said I had bfn and couldn't be pregnant xxx

 

[Mrskg]

It's horrible eh I mean it's not like we were seeing lines that were not there x my friend even saw them for herself x the nurse told me yest if I've ad bfps even though they are bfn now that means the egg fertilised but there was problems at implantation x I'm finding it all a bit surreal at the moment not really sure how I should be feeling x although it's not like last time it's still a loss an I think I need to realise that being too brave right now x
for you x

 

[pitterpatter1]

i am currently going through a miscarriage from a chemical pregnancy and i dont know how to feel either. i know i was pregnant and now im not and i am bleeding and its hurting and its not the same as a period. and i know it wasn't yet a baby but i was still excited and now i am sad, i felt bad leaving work to go docs and i was crying in work so they told me to go docs but I almost feel like i am making such a fuss of nothing cause i know that its not like i have lost a baby as such cause it was so early on but it still makes me so sad. big hugs xx