this is going to be long i warn you!I'm so fed up!Have been having a nightmare few weeks! i just need to write it down! Some of you may have read my posts about needing donor milk... well the donor milk allowed me to get ahead with my expressing and LO put on a little weight which was good! Took to GP as ithought he had silent reflux,was told no not reflux,i just dont have enough milk! Well LO was admitted to the childrens ward because an incompetent neonatal worker failed to book im an appointment with a consultant pead! There they confirmed what i had been saying all along.. that LO has silent reflux!They also picked up a heart murmur,which has us worried sick!They sent him for chest x ray and found mucous plugs on his lungs from inhaling his own stomach acids they refused to do a heart scan to check severity of murmur the doctor told me i ask too many q's and want to 'know everything' i also had formula shoved onto me again!to which i had to tell them IT WAS NOT AN OPTION and i know theres underlying issues which need sorting,not just shoving a bottle in his mouth! the second day there the doc wanted me to feed LO 3 hourly and express and top him up with ebm.he also prescribed gaviscon and said he would arrange for a bf worker to help me (after i requested) Come 4.30pm he came and asked how feeding was going,i explained it was the same ,he was not happy he wanted 3 hourly feeds,he asked about top ups ,i explained noone had brought me a breast pump (as promised) ,he asks how gaviscon is going, i tell him noone has brought LO meds!He then asks how did it go with bf advisor , i then explain nooone has visited me since he saw me that morning!(despute me asking for doc several times throughout the day!) he then says LO needs to stay in again for 'monitoring' i then errupt into an absolute fit of rage !! told him i was d/c LO, told him they are incompetent and have wasted our time!he says he is sorry nothing was done,but i need to understand there are other patients on the ward WTF?!he then wouldnt prescribe something for constipation,insisting that LO was constipated because of not having enough milk,not through gaviscon..aafter a bit more ranting he changed the prescription to renatidine and domperidone and we hot footed it out of there ! then the H.V comes to weigh LO two days later,he has gained yet shes still not happy,goes on about milk supply and baby rice and formula and how long do i plan to tandem feed as it has no nutritional value for my 16 month old (WTF!?) She also telling me to have time away from the kids (like i wouldnt have to express two hourly still!) then today my motherly instincts proved right again as LO was diagnosed with 50% posterior tongue tie by my LC.. got it snipped and hes like a different child! As a BF mum i feel i have been battered by the NHS! I've had 3 docs and a H.V tell me i am not making enough milk,that i CANT make enough milk for two,that LO needs formula and baby rice,that he will become sick if i dont supplement! Not ONCE was i referred to the Lactation Consultant,or even BF advisor!And even when i ASKED they still didnt do it|! Where is the logic here? a baby who has not gained weight since the end of november is given no assistance in improving BF? If you are still reading thanx!I just needed to let it out!i did try and vent to a friend earlier but she pissed me off more by going off on one saying formula aint all bad!Well SORRY but i find fit insulting when people are telling me i'm unable to feed my children when i'm telling them there's underlying issues affecting feeding and they wont listen!She couldn't grasp that it was the same as someone telling her to BF after FF for 5 months! RRRAAAAAWWWWWWWWW! that is all !