March/April BFP's who's going for it!! NEW LADIES COME JOIN IN!!

[brunettebimbo]

Now I'm confused! TMI - I have just been to the toilet and now have slight EWCM. The same thing happened CD22 but I didn't add it. If I add it FF moves my O day on one making me 11DPO meaning AF due Friday. Do I keep the EWCM in or just add as a note? I have no definate signs from when I O'd this month so can't even be sure!

I usually get sorry boobs after O and I didn't have sore boobs until CD15 which would match up with the date FF just gave me!?

 

[Sweetz33]

Mrs...welcome sorry for your loss

Congrats to Mariah! As for the sinuses thing, I am 16 weeks give or take and my sinuses are STILL messed up.

I FINALLLY spoke with the high risk OB and they are getting me in!! I am currently on antibiotics bc of a co-infection to the lyme disease. Other than that doing well. Keeping busy with preparing for Xan's 1st birthday party, photo shoot for said party AND that is how we are going to announce to everyone this pregnancy. I should (hopefully) by the photoshoot know what team I am on, and I am having a custom made T-shirt made for Xan that say "I'm going to be a big brother" or "I am going to have a baby sister/brother". I am then going to sneak these pictures into the 1st birthday album I am putting on FB and seeing how many people notice LOL

I hope all is ok with everyone and everyone is doing splendid.

 

[Mariahs Mom]

Today is such a rough day for me, emotionally. Every time I think abt the new baby I just want to break down crying. It makes me think of my little girl that I lost in Sept. It's so hard to embrace the joy from this pregnancy because all I can think abt is how I felt the day I delivered my baby Mariah and I had to say good bye. Don't get me wrong I am SOOOOOOO excited to be pregnant. I just never realized how hard it would be to move forward after saying goodbye. The day I lost her, I felt her kicking on the day to the hospital. Who knew that would be the last time I would see her...UGHHHHH...I will never understand why god needed her soo soon but I miss her! I wish she could've at least experienced me and knew how much I loved her.

Sorry for the rant! I'm just an emotional wreck today

 

[brunettebimbo]

 

[eyemom]

brunette I could be wrong on this because I only really know little tidbits of information and I'm trying to put them together in a way that makes sense to me but I don't know if this is 100% right. But I think more EWCM can happen after ovulation because it's just a result of increased estrogen. You can get a secondary estrogen surge in the middle of your LP (which can also cause the temp dip as well). OR you get more estrogen when you're pg. OR estrogen increases again when AF is coming. So basically...it's not a bad thing, but it doesn't really mean anything necessarily?? I usually get a little before AF, but a lot of people say they get it around when they get a BFP! So who knows! Good luck!

I was going to type more but I just got a walk-in appt. So I'll catch up shortly!

 

[Unexpected212]

Today is such a rough day for me, emotionally. Every time I think abt the new baby I just want to break down crying. It makes me think of my little girl that I lost in Sept. It's so hard to embrace the joy from this pregnancy because all I can think abt is how I felt the day I delivered my baby Mariah and I had to say good bye. Don't get me wrong I am SOOOOOOO excited to be pregnant. I just never realized how hard it would be to move forward after saying goodbye. The day I lost her, I felt her kicking on the day to the hospital. Who knew that would be the last time I would see her...UGHHHHH...I will never understand why god needed her soo soon but I miss her! I wish she could've at least experienced me and knew how much I loved her.

Sorry for the rant! I'm just an emotional wreck today

I can't even imagine what you've been through. All I can say is we are all here for you and I'm thinking of you xxxx

Lots of hugs your way

 

[brunettebimbo]

brunette I could be wrong on this because I only really know little tidbits of information and I'm trying to put them together in a way that makes sense to me but I don't know if this is 100% right. But I think more EWCM can happen after ovulation because it's just a result of increased estrogen. You can get a secondary estrogen surge in the middle of your LP (which can also cause the temp dip as well). OR you get more estrogen when you're pg. OR estrogen increases again when AF is coming. So basically...it's not a bad thing, but it doesn't really mean anything necessarily?? I usually get a little before AF, but a lot of people say they get it around when they get a BFP! So who knows! Good luck!

I was going to type more but I just got a walk-in appt. So I'll catch up shortly!

I've had it before on both BFP and AF cycles. I'm just not sure whether to add it because it changes my O date?

This is last cycle (first after loss)
https://i253.photobucket.com/albums/hh70/kjordanj/33B3D42E-50B6-48B0-99E6-D54E29F46738_zpsrv70ygqy.jpg

This BFP/Miscarriage cycle
https://i253.photobucket.com/albums/hh70/kjordanj/DCF5E3EE-ABB6-4515-834A-AE3B6E3E0755_zpsd6fxexru.png

 

[Mariahs Mom]

Today is such a rough day for me, emotionally. Every time I think abt the new baby I just want to break down crying. It makes me think of my little girl that I lost in Sept. It's so hard to embrace the joy from this pregnancy because all I can think abt is how I felt the day I delivered my baby Mariah and I had to say good bye. Don't get me wrong I am SOOOOOOO excited to be pregnant. I just never realized how hard it would be to move forward after saying goodbye. The day I lost her, I felt her kicking on the day to the hospital. Who knew that would be the last time I would see her...UGHHHHH...I will never understand why god needed her soo soon but I miss her! I wish she could've at least experienced me and knew how much I loved her.

Sorry for the rant! I'm just an emotional wreck today

I can't even imagine what you've been through. All I can say is we are all here for you and I'm thinking of you xxxx

Lots of hugs your way

Thanks Unexpected that means a lot to me that you guys are here. I really love this thread! The support from all the ladies is a a beautiful thing

 

[Sweetz33]

*vent alert*

So just got a call back from HROB....apparently I am not "high risk" enough to go there according to the ER records. OMFG!! According to the high risk OB doc, lyme disease is not enough to make me high risk. Ok, so ummm.....A disease, that is IN MY BLOOD that is TRANSFERABLE TO THE FETUS, is not high risk enough when it is know to cause MISCARRIAGE AND PRETERM LABOUR and I have a HISTORY OF BOTH!!!!!????? I just started bawling on the phone with my husband. The lady that I was dealing with is really nice though, she really is going above and beyond to help me get in, but her hands are tied bc it is the doctor's call...not hers. So basically, what I have to do now is call some random OB, LIE and say I have no pre-existing problems when I call for the appointment, get into appointment, then tell them. OYE VEY! Why should I lie to get treatment?!?!?! According to the high risk OB, lyme disease is not chronic. I said yes, there is such a thing as chronic lyme. I have it. I said I have been through 2 - 1 month cycles of heavy duty antibiotics and anti-nausea medications and it is still in my bloodstream. Since I was not diagnosed until years after the tic bite, the SYMPTOMS which were caused by late stage lyme are CHRONIC, which makes this CHRONIC LYME. ARRRGHHHH!!!!!!!She then said, yes, you are right...how do you know so much...I said well, when you have something that the CDC says doesn't exist and most doctors know NOTHING about, you have to educate yourself. I am so aggravated right now. I wish it was something as simple as being diagnosed with lupus or MS (which have identical symptoms) bc then I would be taken seriously.

Can I please scream, cry, and punch things now? Do I have the right to freak out? Please????

*vent over*

Sorry, had to get that out...

 

[Mariahs Mom]

OMG sweets that is ridiculous. I swear doctors don't take anything serious until we've lost multiple babies (by then it's too late)...I am soooo frustrated for you. I want to smack the doctor for u. You have the right idea, call a new doctor and LIE LIE LIE! Sometimes we have to take drastic measures to get results. We are mothers just trying to protect our young, everything that is not normal in pregnancy is HIGH RISK....I'm so sorry you have to go through this...

And YES, you have to right right to hit something, somebody; Whomever because UGHHH.

 

[eyemom]

Ah Sweetz! I was so happy when I saw the previous post and now I see this more recent update and I am just SOO FRUSTRATED for you. What are you supposed to do?? Too high risk for the regular Drs, but not high risk enough for the high risk Drs? WTH?? Praying you wind up with just the perfect Dr and all goes well.

Mariahs Mom all I can do is This might sound a little crazy but sometimes I pray to God that he'll give our angel a hug and a kiss and an "I love you" from Mommy and Daddy for us. I don't know, I cry when I think about it, but it also somehow puts a little glimmer of peace in my heart. Of course you miss your sweet little girl but I have to believe she knows how loved she was (and still is)

to you all

 

[Sweetz33]

Thanks Mariah and Eye....OMG I am so f'n pissed right now....RAWR!!!! I got a great idea from an OB I called who wants to help, but doesn't take my insurance *facepalm* She said if ANYTHING else happens, or is of concern, go DIRECTLY to the ER at the hospital that has the high risk OB. She said that way they have NO CHOICE but to take you at the high risk clinic. The issue that is arising is that the ER records do not say all my health conditions, so apparently no one is taking me seriously AND well the myth that chronic lyme does not exist. Funny thing....if I lived in a northern state, this would not be an issue, but since I live in the south where lyme disease is rare, I am full of crap. I would punch something right now, but I just don't have the darn energy. Just please keep me in your prayers bc I have no stinking clue now when (or if) I will EVER see a doctor at this point.

 

[Mariahs Mom]

Eyemom, that is a great idea. I will definitely have to take that idea from you. And you're right, it does give me some peace in my heart knowing that she is with God and he has a plan for my family! I hope that it becomes a little easier each day for both of us

Sweetz this is so unbelievable but that OB is right, just go to the ER where they have no choice to have the High Risk OB see u and maybe this one will refer you to a regular High Risk OB who will accept you as a patient. I'm praying for u ����

 

[Sweetz33]

Thanks Mariah.

As for my little ones that I lost, I often ask God to give them hugs and I know He does. As silly as that might seem to some.

 

[Mariahs Mom]

Sweetz- You're welcome. That doesn't seem silly at all. You & Eyemom have the same great idea.

 

[Pinkcasi]

Hey girlies, shit sweets that sucks balls! Sorry your having to deal with that. N a better note omg I can't believe your 16 weeks it's flown by and that Xander is nearly 1! That's insane.

Mariah's mom big hugs for you lovely, i know what you mean, I feel guilty sometimes when I look at my beautiful Stella that I don't feel sad more often for my lost angel, I can't imagine how hard it is for you losing Mariah so late on, but you are allowed to be happy again and enjoy this pregnancy, let yourself have that. x

Who else was I going to personalise.... I don't know :wave: to you all much love x

 

[Unexpected212]

Sweetz- You're welcome. That doesn't seem silly at all. You & Eyemom have the same great idea.

I feel the same. Although my loss was very early I like to think that he (I thought it was a boy straight away) is up there with my grandparents and my uncle and they are taking care of him until I get up there oneday

It's a comforting thought.

 

[Mariahs Mom]

Hey girlies, shit sweets that sucks balls! Sorry your having to deal with that. N a better note omg I can't believe your 16 weeks it's flown by and that Xander is nearly 1! That's insane.

Mariah's mom big hugs for you lovely, i know what you mean, I feel guilty sometimes when I look at my beautiful Stella that I don't feel sad more often for my lost angel, I can't imagine how hard it is for you losing Mariah so late on, but you are allowed to be happy again and enjoy this pregnancy, let yourself have that. x

Who else was I going to personalise.... I don't know :wave: to you all much love x

Thanks Pink...One day I hope to look down at my child and see the beauty that I have created and blessed to experience. I will enjoy this pregnancy. It's a blessing that is not offered to some, so I don't want to seem ungrateful!

 

[Mariahs Mom]

Sweetz- You're welcome. That doesn't seem silly at all. You & Eyemom have the same great idea.

I feel the same. Although my loss was very early I like to think that he (I thought it was a boy straight away) is up there with my grandparents and my uncle and they are taking care of him until I get up there oneday

It's a comforting thought.

Yes it is very comforting! There is a plan for all of us. We may not understand it but we have to have faith we will have our happy ending!

Oh yea, Unexpected! I just realized we both will be due around the same time. We can be on this journey together

 

[Unexpected212]

Hey girlies, shit sweets that sucks balls! Sorry your having to deal with that. N a better note omg I can't believe your 16 weeks it's flown by and that Xander is nearly 1! That's insane.

Mariah's mom big hugs for you lovely, i know what you mean, I feel guilty sometimes when I look at my beautiful Stella that I don't feel sad more often for my lost angel, I can't imagine how hard it is for you losing Mariah so late on, but you are allowed to be happy again and enjoy this pregnancy, let yourself have that. x

Who else was I going to personalise.... I don't know :wave: to you all much love x

Thanks Pink...One day I hope to look down at my child and see the beauty that I have created and blessed to experience. I will enjoy this pregnancy. It's a blessing that is not offered to some, so I don't want to seem ungrateful!

I'm always amazed by how positive you are and how kind you are to everyone on this thread. You really are a lovely person.

You've given me such support and I'm sorry I can't say or do more to help you through this tough time.

I truly believe that this is your rainbow and soon you'll be holding him or her.

Your an inspiration!

How far are you now hun? We will be due very close together I think!