Inneedofhope
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I found out two weeks ago at a routine scan that something was wrong, I guess now looking back I never really felt relaxed about this pregnancy, initially they told me I was measuring a bit behind and maybe I was just 6 weeks pregnant. I knew this wasnt correct and when the ultrasonographer didnt give me any photos I knew deep down.
I saw my GP the following day and she told me it didnt look good, she would monitor my hcg every second day for the next week and sent me home to likely miscarry. A long week later and still nothing!
My hcg continued to increase as it should of but after another scan the OB confirmed it was not viable.
I had an erpc a few days later.
I am overwhelmed by how much my world has been shattered. My baby was only 9 weeks but I loved it so much. My husband and I had been trying for almost a year, it would of been our first baby and now I worry we will never know the joys of being a parent.
This whole process has been made far more difficult by a woman I work with who openly discusses EVERY SINGLE DAY how easy she falls pregnant and how you only should have to have sex once and that I do not know what life is like until I myself am a mother. Well of course 4 days after I lose my baby she announces to everyone that she is pregnant.
My friends tell me that I shouldnt let it upset me, that my baby just wasnt meant to be, that obviously my baby wasnt healthy, that so many women go through this.
These are things I know, but to me, my baby was real, my baby was loved, my baby was so badly wanted. I had already pictured my future with my beautiful baby and thats all gone.
How does everyone cope? How do you move forward? Because right now I feel that I have been broken but still desperate and terrified to be pregnant again.
I am dealing with this on my own and Im just overwhelmed with sadness, anger, jealousy and heartbreak.
I saw my GP the following day and she told me it didnt look good, she would monitor my hcg every second day for the next week and sent me home to likely miscarry. A long week later and still nothing!
My hcg continued to increase as it should of but after another scan the OB confirmed it was not viable.
I had an erpc a few days later.
I am overwhelmed by how much my world has been shattered. My baby was only 9 weeks but I loved it so much. My husband and I had been trying for almost a year, it would of been our first baby and now I worry we will never know the joys of being a parent.
This whole process has been made far more difficult by a woman I work with who openly discusses EVERY SINGLE DAY how easy she falls pregnant and how you only should have to have sex once and that I do not know what life is like until I myself am a mother. Well of course 4 days after I lose my baby she announces to everyone that she is pregnant.
My friends tell me that I shouldnt let it upset me, that my baby just wasnt meant to be, that obviously my baby wasnt healthy, that so many women go through this.
These are things I know, but to me, my baby was real, my baby was loved, my baby was so badly wanted. I had already pictured my future with my beautiful baby and thats all gone.
How does everyone cope? How do you move forward? Because right now I feel that I have been broken but still desperate and terrified to be pregnant again.
I am dealing with this on my own and Im just overwhelmed with sadness, anger, jealousy and heartbreak.