Multiple IVF failures...what now?

[Lucie73821]

Hi ladies. I'm still stuck in limbo. Had another scan. Still nothing could be found. We've decided to wait until Monday and repeat the beta. He still can't confirm that it's a miscarriage, and not ectopic. I'm praying my numbers go down, and I will miscarry and not need a d&c.

 

[MoBaby]

again I am sooo sorry Lucie. So unfair.

 

[oneof14]

lucie, I'm sorry you have to go through this, I'm hoping your numbers go down too.

Mo, when are you planning of doing FET? I've started a workout regimen as well, along with a diet. I need to start to feel better about myself. IVF is a vicious cycle, gain weight and can't workout. I haven't felt good about myself in over a hear. Sad but true.

 

[MoBaby]

I dont know when my FS will clear me... I'm hoping in march/april...I still have a high level of hcg in me 11 days after d/c the hpt is still dark as control so I think AF is a while away still and I cant cycle until AF shows... I've lost 8-9 lbs since I was pregnant because first I couldnt eat b/c of nausea then I was too depressed to eat... Now that I started working out again I am eating more so I am sure I will get back to my "normal" soon...Im not complaining about the wt loss though! I didnt gain any wt with the fertility drugs. So hopefully in march.

 

[MoBaby]

Hi Molly!

 

[septbride]

Lucie and MoBaby, how are you both holding up?

Oneof, good for you, working out and eating right. It's so hard to not be able to work out during these cycles!

 

[MoBaby]

Hey septbride... Im okay; cry on and off.... Still wish I knew what happened. I think I'll feel better after f/u feb 5. Thanks for asking!

 

[oneof14]

I dont know when my FS will clear me... I'm hoping in march/april...I still have a high level of hcg in me 11 days after d/c the hpt is still dark as control so I think AF is a while away still and I cant cycle until AF shows... I've lost 8-9 lbs since I was pregnant because first I couldnt eat b/c of nausea then I was too depressed to eat... Now that I started working out again I am eating more so I am sure I will get back to my "normal" soon...Im not complaining about the wt loss though! I didnt gain any wt with the fertility drugs. So hopefully in march.

Its good that you are working out again. It helps with my head and I should do it more often. I will be cycling in March as well, pending a bunch of tests the new RE wants to do come out ok. I am hoping we'll have the luck of the Irish!

 

[oneof14]

Lucie, I am thinking about you!

 

[whattheiveff]

Hi ladies, Hope everyone had good weekends. I got my catheter out this morning only to find out my uterus is STILL tricky and they'll have to put a stitch in there at retrieval to make the transfer easier. Lovely. My doctor is also trying a double dose of menopur instead of a menopur/Gonal F combo to try to combat my Hypothelamic Amennorhea. She isn't sure if it will give better results but seemed excited to try. So 8 vials of menopur a day for this girl. Geez. I have started attempting to think positively about this cycle, because constantly thinking of the worst case scenario doesn't make it any less devastating. Might as well try something new this time, right? I also want to get a plan in place for our next step if this fails again so I'm not navigating those decisions while hopped up on hormones and devastated by another failure. As long as we get decent embryos, I'll want to do a 4th cycle, so I want to figure out where to do it, since I'm not going to give my current clinic a 4th try. I'm really leaning towards Dr. Davis at Cornell. It would mean travelling a bit, but I have family in New York I could stay with, and it seems like he specializes in DOR. Sorry for the ramble!

 

[oneof14]

Whatif, I really did like Dr. Davis and the best part about him is, he will review your records prior to coming all the way to NYC and can do a phone consultation. I am going to see him again on Wednesday as he is doing my HSG.

I am glad you have the protocol and are ready to go. I hope you dont even need another consult, this is it for you!

 

[Lucie73821]

Hi ladies! Still in limbo... Last Monday's beta was 1869. Wednesday was 2085. Today's 3190. I have an apt tomorrow at 8 am. I just want to be able to move on.

Hope everyone else is doing well.

 

[L4hope]

Oh Lucie that's just awful news for you. I'm so sorry you are stuck in this tortuous spot right now. Hopefully they find out what's going on tomorrow.

 

[whattheiveff]

Lucie - Beta hell is the absolute worst place to be. I'm so, so sorry. I hope you get some answers today.

 

[Lucie73821]

So apparently I'm some big medical mystery. Third scan still shows nothing. But there is something growing somewhere. Plan is to treat as if ectopic. They drew blood and depending on when the results come back, I will be given methotrexate either this afternoon or tomorrow.

 

[septbride]

Hang in there, Lucie. I hope you hear something soon and can get the methotrexate over with.

We've decided to stay put for our third cycle in Feb/March and will go to a new clinic if that one fails. Cornell is on my short list as well -- this is becoming the Cornell thread! I'm also looking at NYU and RMA.

 

[oneof14]

Lucie, I am so sorry you have to go through this.

 

[whattheiveff]

Ugh, Lucie, I'm so sorry. Stay strong!

 

[L4hope]

Lucie so sorry!

 

[everhopeful]

Lucie - so sorry. Hopefully this will all be over for you soon so that you can move on. Xx