Right iv been wanting to ask for a while but dont know really how to word what i want to say. Do you feel 'differently' about your kids. I love my kids equally. I dont love one more than the other they both make up my world. But i am just so fussy with Madi and not at all with Zach and wonder if people are picking up on it, or judging me. Like for example, if she gets ill, i worry myself sick, i panic. When she is upset, i get upset like, i feel how upset she is. She keeps doing this whole 'trying her hardest not to cry' thing, and i can see her lip going and she just bursts into tears. My heart bursts for her. But with Zach, when he is poorly, i dont get the same panicky feeling, i feel calm, like, i kinda know what im doing with him. And when he cries, i just shhh him and kiss and cuddle him and hes fine and were happy. I dont get the same paranoid feeling in my tummy that he is really upset about something. Am i the only one like this?