Hi everyone,
Hope this is not too long for everyone.
I have posted a few threads on bnb, but feel i am ready to post one about my beautiful baby boy who is now in heaven. I had my darling son Cameron in November 2007, he was our second child (my other son is now 6) everything was perfect our life was complete until that horrific day in March this year. We had spent the day shopping and returned home at 5ish, and just as i was making dinner my eldest son came running thru to the kitchen with his brother playing chase - i will never forget the giggles and fun they were having, then as i came into the living room i saw Cameron trip over and bump the back of his head - he cried and naturally i went over to pick him up and comfort him, after a few seconds he just stopped crying and i realised to my horror he was unconscious, things from there on became what i can only describe as hysterical.
My DH phoned an ambulance which arrived in minutes as i was doing CPR on my baby son - meanwhile my other son was screaming trying to understand what had happened. We were rushed thru to the local hospital where it was discovered the little one had an internal head bleed, so he was rushed to the nearest sick kids hospital, all this took hours but passed in a blur.
On arriving at the kids hosp my darling was in surgery for 4 hours where they removed part of his skull to relieve the pressure on his brain and much to all the specialists surprise my little fighter kept fighting, i have never prayed so much in my entire life - begging god to make him ok and to make me suffer instead. He fought and fought on life support for another 20 hours when finally his consultant dealt the blow i will never get over, his brain pressure was increasing rapidly and had we thought about getting him baptised - which we chose to do, then we had to make a decision whether to let him suffer or let him go, we looked at him and without too many details he looked like he had fought enough, so we made the hardest decision we will ever ever need to make - we decided to let him go.
Once they took all the machines away - our darling little sweetheart only took a few little breaths and grew his wings, i will never forget him lying between my husband and i as he took those last breaths.
All this from a simple fall - that is the part i could not understand until we learned that it was a tragic accident and the odds were one mm either way he probably would have got up and walked away, that makes it harder to accept.
Sorry if i have gone on for too long just felt ready to share my story - and the way i like to think is my baby was needed somewhere special and i miss him more every day but love him more every second.
xxx
Hope this is not too long for everyone.
I have posted a few threads on bnb, but feel i am ready to post one about my beautiful baby boy who is now in heaven. I had my darling son Cameron in November 2007, he was our second child (my other son is now 6) everything was perfect our life was complete until that horrific day in March this year. We had spent the day shopping and returned home at 5ish, and just as i was making dinner my eldest son came running thru to the kitchen with his brother playing chase - i will never forget the giggles and fun they were having, then as i came into the living room i saw Cameron trip over and bump the back of his head - he cried and naturally i went over to pick him up and comfort him, after a few seconds he just stopped crying and i realised to my horror he was unconscious, things from there on became what i can only describe as hysterical.
My DH phoned an ambulance which arrived in minutes as i was doing CPR on my baby son - meanwhile my other son was screaming trying to understand what had happened. We were rushed thru to the local hospital where it was discovered the little one had an internal head bleed, so he was rushed to the nearest sick kids hospital, all this took hours but passed in a blur.
On arriving at the kids hosp my darling was in surgery for 4 hours where they removed part of his skull to relieve the pressure on his brain and much to all the specialists surprise my little fighter kept fighting, i have never prayed so much in my entire life - begging god to make him ok and to make me suffer instead. He fought and fought on life support for another 20 hours when finally his consultant dealt the blow i will never get over, his brain pressure was increasing rapidly and had we thought about getting him baptised - which we chose to do, then we had to make a decision whether to let him suffer or let him go, we looked at him and without too many details he looked like he had fought enough, so we made the hardest decision we will ever ever need to make - we decided to let him go.
Once they took all the machines away - our darling little sweetheart only took a few little breaths and grew his wings, i will never forget him lying between my husband and i as he took those last breaths.
All this from a simple fall - that is the part i could not understand until we learned that it was a tragic accident and the odds were one mm either way he probably would have got up and walked away, that makes it harder to accept.
Sorry if i have gone on for too long just felt ready to share my story - and the way i like to think is my baby was needed somewhere special and i miss him more every day but love him more every second.
xxx
