Mum2threeboys
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Ok just going to jump straight in....
So seeing mums who have all girls doesn't hurt so much, and seein people oblivious to their luck with one of each - twinges - but it's not so bad.
What really kills me is seeing people who know my pain - have experience that longing with all their hearts in the same way I have that actually have their chance to look down into their son or daughters eyes that they have been longing for knowing they have achieved their dream - after all their girls or all their boys - here in this special bundle wrapped in blankets of dazzling colours they never thought they'd own feeling that immense love and pride that must be so incomparable to any other feeling (except perhaps winning the lottery as I often feel the odds must be similar for me!) now that, that makes me swell with green envy!
Not the hatred type or anything negative just the type of envy that you know they possess something you can never have!
I am genuinely convinced that i do not have the ready ingredients inside me to make a beautiful little girl. I have pretty awesome blue ones and they make fantastic little men!
But alas there is no sugar or spice or anythin nice brewing in my ovaries
This pregnancy was a surprise and now I have come to terms with the idea I am having another - a small part of me is starting to feel tha longing again.
I am 10 & a bit weeks pregnant with baby chap number 4! I know into head/heart that it's another boy. So why the bloody hell do I put myself through the stage of hoping praying day dreaming and obsessing over the pitiful chance of me having that little girl - the one that has existed in my imagination since the very first time I imagined having children. One of each was always my plan... One of life's first hard lessons I should have learnt to accept wayyy before now is tha you very very rarely get what you Want!
Thanks for listening.
Sending lots of slugs and snails and a good bunch of puppy dog tails to all those hoping for boys!!! I have a hoard of it stored in there.
So seeing mums who have all girls doesn't hurt so much, and seein people oblivious to their luck with one of each - twinges - but it's not so bad.
What really kills me is seeing people who know my pain - have experience that longing with all their hearts in the same way I have that actually have their chance to look down into their son or daughters eyes that they have been longing for knowing they have achieved their dream - after all their girls or all their boys - here in this special bundle wrapped in blankets of dazzling colours they never thought they'd own feeling that immense love and pride that must be so incomparable to any other feeling (except perhaps winning the lottery as I often feel the odds must be similar for me!) now that, that makes me swell with green envy!
Not the hatred type or anything negative just the type of envy that you know they possess something you can never have!
I am genuinely convinced that i do not have the ready ingredients inside me to make a beautiful little girl. I have pretty awesome blue ones and they make fantastic little men!
But alas there is no sugar or spice or anythin nice brewing in my ovaries
This pregnancy was a surprise and now I have come to terms with the idea I am having another - a small part of me is starting to feel tha longing again.
I am 10 & a bit weeks pregnant with baby chap number 4! I know into head/heart that it's another boy. So why the bloody hell do I put myself through the stage of hoping praying day dreaming and obsessing over the pitiful chance of me having that little girl - the one that has existed in my imagination since the very first time I imagined having children. One of each was always my plan... One of life's first hard lessons I should have learnt to accept wayyy before now is tha you very very rarely get what you Want!
Thanks for listening.
Sending lots of slugs and snails and a good bunch of puppy dog tails to all those hoping for boys!!! I have a hoard of it stored in there.