hey sewergrrl-
sorry i misunderstood you, i thought you were ttc #1! i like you're new profile picture, you're daughter is adorable
it's crazy how we have similar stories with our 1st children, neither of us knowing or planning the pregnancy! did your pregnancy with her go smoothly? i had a perfect pregnancy with my son (not such a smooth delivery though) which i guess makes it harder for me now that we're having trouble getting pregnant/keeping pregnancies
i'm really so sorry about your loss
believe me i felt the exact same way after, that i wanted another baby NOW. it really is the worst feeling, going for a u/s and them telling you they didn't detect anything, i feel your pain. that happened to me with my 2nd m/c- i woke up with af-like cramps and just not feeling right, called my dr because i had started bleeding, they sent me for a u/s, i just KNEW i was m/c'ing. the u/s tech told me "i'm so sorry, there's no longer a heartbeat". i saw my dr & she gave me the option of a d&c or to do it naturally at home, i chose to let it happen naturally, which it did pretty much right away. it was probably the worst physical & emotional pain i've ever been though. the bad thing about m/c'ing naturally is that you SEE everything you pass, i almost 9 weeks, so i saw the baby
not to mention my 2 bestfriends were pregnant and i had to throw my bestfriends baby shower (the baby is also my godson) 2 days after the m/c. that pregnancy was also a very bumpy road and is also another long story
i ended up getting pregnant a month after that m/c, we were ntnp since i was still very emotional. i never got af in between pregnancies, i called my dr and she said that it was normal for af not to come and take awhile get back to normal after a m/c so i didn't think anything of it. on halloween i randomly took a test and it was positive! 5 days later i started spotting, the dr/nurses said it was normal is early pregnancy, i had my hcg's checked every other day and they said it was just early. i started cramping really really badly and bleeding full-on a few days later. i never even called them to say i had a m/c, i was so mad, angry & upset, they couldn't have been colder when i called concerned with bleeding every day.
anyways, i changed drs in the practice after that, saw a new one a months ago because my cycles were VERY long, between 35-50 days, she said i just have irregular cycles and to use opk's to track them. feeling like we were getting nowhere, i called a fertility place and the dr couldn't have been nicer and more helpful. if i dont get pregnant this cycle than i go in for blood work, an u/s & have a test where they inject dye into the uterus to check for things like cysts, fiboroids, blockages, scar tissue etc. i just want to make sure everything is okay before we keep trying. she said if i had any of those issues they're looking for, that could be the reason that i keep loosing pregnancies, because they have problems attaching or staying attached. so we will see.
i don't know much about clomid either, but i am pretty sure it does make you ovulate. i think she wants me to start on that so we KNOW i ovulate and can pinpoint it, since my cycles are so irregular and its hard to track. they don't count the chem preg as a "real" m/c. i had 2 positive tests, followed by negatives days later. my hcg was barely detectable, i guess thats why they call it chemical because technically it is. the fertility dr said if i were to have a 3rd real m/c then they'd do testing to find out why.
wow, sorry this is so damn long and all about me! there's a lot of stuff that went on, so much to explain!
back to you, i hope you don't have to go the fertility route either, i would really rather not because i just turned 25. when i get more info about clomid from my dr i'll let you know for sure! the catholic hospital won't even give medication to help get pregnant?? i can understand a catholic hospital being against b/c but not against helping to create a baby! that's crazy, theres no way you can go to a different hospital for your obgyn??
anyways, so sorry again for your loss & for my super long response
i'm hoping and praying we all get our
this month!!!
sticky baby dust to us!!
but I couldn't help myself; they were relentless.
shows! i'll try to be more optimistic for us 
i just don't want to give my hopes up, this is my 4th cycle since 2 m/c's and i think every cycle is "the" cycle, and i get let down every time. i'm so glad this thread is going because it seems like we're all feeling the same way.
hahaha
