my heart hurts!!!

[RedRose19]

how do i make it stop... i cant breath im crying so much

i hate night as its when i think about it more... i get such bad thoughts then and ive just no one to talk to about it here...

i just wish my heart didnt hurt so much

 

[stay.positive]

I am so sorry to hear you are in so much pain.

 

[grandbleu]

I'm sorry hon...my heart hurts too. Night is the worst...it seems so empty and alone. I hope you can get some peace and sleep tonight.

 

[RedRose19]

yes.. its like... when the sun goes down... so does my happiness tho i must say im thankful to have my oh... not sure what id do without him...

im just never going to be a mother! its the one thing ive ALWAYS wanted.. i just want a family... maybe im not meant to be a mother.. maybe id make a crap one therefore life just doesnt want me to be one

my stomach hurts from crying so much... i sound so stupid...

 

[grandbleu]

Not stupid at all hon - I've said and felt everything you just wrote. I feel like it was a sign that I couldn't "handle" being a mom...that I wasn't good enough...the list goes on.

In reality though we deserve to be moms and we will be the best moms ever because we will know truly the gift of having a child having passed through miscarriages and knowing the loss of a baby. Imagine how much love we will be able to give.

I hope your tears will dry up...but it's good to cry sometimes and just let it out. I agree with you OH has been wonderful (but sometimes I feel a bit bad being so emotional...I wonder how much patience he has left)

Sweet dreams I hope...

Are you TTCing now? We are...only have done one cycle since our miscarriage (just a half-hearted try that obviously didn't work. We are really going to TRY try this month though...I don't think I could stand the holidays without some happy baby news.

 

[RedRose19]

well ive just had my 3rd mc so as it stands right now.. no were not planning on ttc right now.. it took us a year to concieve after the mc before this...

tho a dear friend of mine who is a herbal doc thinks she can help... and id rather go with natural help than docs.. plus i know she actually cares about me if that makes sense...

im sorry for your loss and pain... big i hope your blessed with a sticky bean soon thanks for caring... sometimes its all anyone needs.. is someone to listen x

 

[Chilli]

Redrose - I know, the hurt is too much to bear sometimes. Please if you feel too low seek some help. I was so down in Jan that it was dangerous, here I am several months on and just had another MC, but I don't feel so bad now. I meet with a counsilor once a week and it's helped me drag myself up from the dark place I was in

 

[lollylou1]

huge huge hugs hunny i with there was something i could do to take your pain away!

Lou
xxx

 

[littlebum]

Im so sorry for your loss. Please seek help for feeling so low. My husband made me see the GP and i got referred to the comunity health team and am now on medication and attending a day hosp where i see the corect people to help my mood improve. I also have no one. All my friends have either never had a m/c or are pregnant. I still cant stop crying and im sick of people telling me that time is the greatest healer. I just want it to stop hurting now xxx

 

[Rowan75]

so so sorry hon x