my apologies for taking so long to get this put down as well as apologies for getting so detailed and having it written like I'm writing to her, as i plan on printing this and putting it in her baby book. so..let's start from the beginning.. It was Tuesday night, April 12. i had stayed home from work that day again and your dad was at his first remote control airplane meeting. It was about 8pm and I was feeling very dirty as I hadn't showered yet that day and just felt like I needed to be clean. Shortly after that your dad got home and we had started our nightly routine of making dinner and finding something to watch for the night. By now its 930 and I had just gone to the bathroom and proceeded to complete my crab pasta salad when i started to leak a little. felt just like a normal leak and being 39 weeks along, thought nothing of it. after needing to go back to the bathroom a couple times over the next 5 min and changing pads to a thicker one, i made a comment to your dad that i may need to call the 24 hour nurse as what was coming out was clear and had no smell. by the time i decided to call it was now 1030 and after a 30 min conversation, i was advised to go into the l&d to be checked. so this started the packing as i hadn't gotten anything packed other than bathroom things as you were planned to be induced that friday the 15th. after dropping your half brother off, we were on our way. fast forward to after being checked in to L&d (midnight april 13), the admitting lpn checked and sure enough, i was in labor. i was having very strong contractions, tho didn't feel any of it and was insisting to not have any pitocin hooked up until later, as my dr didn't get in til 8 am and i didn't want anyone else delivering you. i was progressing slowly, however by 4 cm and 530 am, they decided to hook me up to pitocin to get labor pushed along as i was in danger of getting an infection from having my water broken for so long. this was when i decided i would get the epidural as it would take at least an hour, this too was an adventure! your dad was very tired from being up at 530 the previous morning and was sleeping a good majority since arriving and being checked in, however once the anesthesiologist arrived, they woke him up so he could help. must've been a lot for him to handle, because while the dr was putting in the epi, your dad caught a glipse and about fainted! LOL. at 8 am my dr came in to check and i was now at 6cm but your head was starting to cone..this meant you weren't going to fit thru my pelvic bone. we started to have the conversation of possible c section as i was also showing signs of an infection, but thought to give it more time. i progressed further to 8cm however this time the dr came in with not so good news. she was going to let me try pushing as i wasn't progressing very quickly, however she counted 6 contractions where your heartbeat was dangerously low with each contraction. this started the immediate need to get ready for surgery. this had to have been somewhere around 2 as i was informed within 30 min, you would be here. good thing we were starting to get ready because my epi was starting to fail! oh those contractions hurt! i got my blood drawn, daddy got ready in his scrubs and we were on our way! at 3:17 pm you were born. they wouldn't let me see you right away as you had meconium in your lungs (good thing we got you when we did, plus you were face up so even if you could've fit thru my pelvic, you would've never got out), but when they finally held you up for me, you were the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. i was so jealous that daddy got to hold you first, but you were here, you were finally here. by this time my body must've gotten used to the spinal, because i started to feel everything. i was maxed on morphine and was given an additional spinal, but still managed to feel the final stitches. once i got moved back to the bed, all of that pain went away as i was finally able to hold you. i just couldn't believe i was finally holding you. you were exactly what my heart was missing, i knew in that moment the reason i fell in love with dad. it wasn't by chance at all, we were put here to bring you into this world. i love you Abbygael Leeann Marie, you are our little miracle.