babyhopes2
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Hello ladies,
1st of all, i really do want this to offer some hope. I am terribly sorry if it doesn't. My intention is not to make anyone feel worse. But i know i used to trawl these boards looking for people who had been in my situation and had a positive outcome. So, perhaps my story may offer some hope.
I spent a long time looking for comfort, reassurance.... Anything on these boards. I got pregnant in aug 2010 after trying for 9 months. It felt like forever but i realise know it wasn't. After about 5 weeks i started to bleed. For the next 7 weeks we were backwards and forwards to the hospital, having scans etc. Eachtime heartbeat was still there and i was toldthat this could be 'one of thosethings' i think knew all along that it wasn't happening. An at week 11 the scan showed that the baby had given up. I was booked fo a D&c but the night before i passed everything naturally. Very painful and i just felt dreadful. I struggled to get through it. It seemed that ppl kept wanting to tell me how common i was. MIL referring to the baby a a fetus. I was terribly sad.
A year later, we finally fell pregnant again and sadly history repeated itself. Almost exactly. Well this time i just felt hopeless. I wnt to see a specialist as was sure there was something wrong and had lots of tests. All came back normal. But it was suggested that i had a laparoscopy which showed extensive endometriosis. This was not the reason for m/c but could have been why it took so long to conceive. The month after the procedure i got pregnant again. I was terrified again. Ths time i took progesterone support. I was tol that this may make no difference but wouldn't hurt. I just wanted to feel like i was doing something. Anyway, week 5, the bleeding starts. Here we go again. At this stage i felt like i just couldn't do this again. Scans showed a bleed around the sac this time, and that the baby was the right size. Previously, it had always been a little behind. Anyway, this gave me a little hope. But still as the bleeding continued i cpuldn't help but feel like i would lose this baby too. I carried on with the progesterone and this time got to the 12 week scan, and the 20' and the numerous other private scans i paid for in between!! I had another bleed at 20 something weeks, a few water infections but overall imade it through without too much worry (yeah right!!) and now i have a gorgeous baby girl. And my word, it was worth every moment of pain, every minute of feeling useless, every single second of thinking that this was a sign that i shouldn't be a mummy!
I realise that at this moment, lots of you will be feeling utterly hopeless and im sure some of your stories and priblems will be far harder than mine were but i hope for you all that you find the strength to carry on and do get to the other side with your special gifts.
God bless and good luck xxxxx
1st of all, i really do want this to offer some hope. I am terribly sorry if it doesn't. My intention is not to make anyone feel worse. But i know i used to trawl these boards looking for people who had been in my situation and had a positive outcome. So, perhaps my story may offer some hope.
I spent a long time looking for comfort, reassurance.... Anything on these boards. I got pregnant in aug 2010 after trying for 9 months. It felt like forever but i realise know it wasn't. After about 5 weeks i started to bleed. For the next 7 weeks we were backwards and forwards to the hospital, having scans etc. Eachtime heartbeat was still there and i was toldthat this could be 'one of thosethings' i think knew all along that it wasn't happening. An at week 11 the scan showed that the baby had given up. I was booked fo a D&c but the night before i passed everything naturally. Very painful and i just felt dreadful. I struggled to get through it. It seemed that ppl kept wanting to tell me how common i was. MIL referring to the baby a a fetus. I was terribly sad.
A year later, we finally fell pregnant again and sadly history repeated itself. Almost exactly. Well this time i just felt hopeless. I wnt to see a specialist as was sure there was something wrong and had lots of tests. All came back normal. But it was suggested that i had a laparoscopy which showed extensive endometriosis. This was not the reason for m/c but could have been why it took so long to conceive. The month after the procedure i got pregnant again. I was terrified again. Ths time i took progesterone support. I was tol that this may make no difference but wouldn't hurt. I just wanted to feel like i was doing something. Anyway, week 5, the bleeding starts. Here we go again. At this stage i felt like i just couldn't do this again. Scans showed a bleed around the sac this time, and that the baby was the right size. Previously, it had always been a little behind. Anyway, this gave me a little hope. But still as the bleeding continued i cpuldn't help but feel like i would lose this baby too. I carried on with the progesterone and this time got to the 12 week scan, and the 20' and the numerous other private scans i paid for in between!! I had another bleed at 20 something weeks, a few water infections but overall imade it through without too much worry (yeah right!!) and now i have a gorgeous baby girl. And my word, it was worth every moment of pain, every minute of feeling useless, every single second of thinking that this was a sign that i shouldn't be a mummy!
I realise that at this moment, lots of you will be feeling utterly hopeless and im sure some of your stories and priblems will be far harder than mine were but i hope for you all that you find the strength to carry on and do get to the other side with your special gifts.
God bless and good luck xxxxx
K x
. Im hoping it was a tech error and will be going back in on friday with the last tech who found the baby and heartbeat. I just can't believe the baby had disappeared in 2 wks and all that is left is a yolk sac?
