My TTC story, thus far

[BabyBlessing1]

I tried once to post and I suppose I timed out, so I will try to make this one quicker.

I am 28, and my husband is 29. We have been together 7 years and married for 3.5 years. We have been TTC for 2 years coming up this may.

After 1 year off the pill, and trying on our on, I realized it was not going to work. I called my OBGYN and got the ball rolling with lab work. I started taking Clomid 50 mg in October 2013. I took it again in November and the nurse asked why I didnt have lab work on day 21. So in December, I took it again, with lab work and ultrasounds, close to the correct days because of Christmas and New Year holidays. Turns out, I did not ovulate.

January of 2014, brought new hope and Clomid 100 mg. My fourth month in a row which is rare to receive. For the first time my ultrasound showed follicles the correct size and uterine lining the correct thickness. I was so excited! So was my husband! We had a good week of trying, but several days later, I started my period at work. I was prepared for it, but not emotionally. I had to go to the restroom and cry. I pulled myself togther, dried my eyes and went back to work.

When I called my OBGYN again, I was referred to a Reproducitve Specialist. I knew this would be the next step. It was honestly bitter sweet to make the appointment. I was hopeful something would start working, but also doubtful as I have seen many friends and family members continuously come up empty.

I was fortunate that Wednesday morning, because there had been a Friday morning cancellation. I went by myself, since my husband was getting off work and promised to take many many notes for him. We had a tenative game plan and lab work was drawn with a new baseline ultrasound. Turns out, all those visits with my OBGYN was almost useless due to the nurses being out of the office on all the days I needed blood work and US done.

This past Wednesday I had an HSG. It is an x-ray of the uterus with floroscopy to show blockage of the fallopian tubes. My husband was there making me laugh when I was about to cry, even as I saw tears welling up in his own red eyes. I was so scared. But he held my hand and proved that we were in this together.

I am an nurse, and it was strange being on the other side. I was afraid of how bad it would hurt. I had worked the night before and the office nurse wouldnt give me anything for pain, after saying she had 2 natural childbirths and this HSG was worse for her. Now, want to talk about freaking out?!

So here I am, 28 and feel as if I am planning a talk with our parents about never being able to give them grandchildren or OUR own grandparent's to give them great-grandchildren.

I have resisted social media these past several months because I just cannot handle seeing one more sorority sister or high school class mate, hell, even kindergarden class mate, announce they are expecting their own bundle of joy.

One girl in our close group of friends can just think about another baby and has one. I know this because she is currently incubating #3! We had dinner last week and she said nothing! I should have known when she was drinking water, but honestly she always drinks water.

Dont get me started on the momma's that I feel dont deserve to be one. I eat right, get sleep, exercise and dont smoke or do drugs, and I see pregnant women at dinner puffing away! It was everything I had in me not to walk up to her and give her my two cents.

Sorry about the rant. I look forward to the giving and receiving of encouragment. Wish all of you well in yourcurrent and future endeavors!

 

[BBYfever]

Hi, i am so sorry for what you are going through, but I think there are so many women in your same situation. I just turned 29 and my DH is 30, we have been married a year and a half and have just started the TTC journey. I have never had a "normal" 28 day cycle, they have always been longer. To be honest I never thought much of it or cared, until now. Knowing that my cycle lengths were crazy, I decided to see my Gyn right away and she did tons of blood work and an ultra sound. Everything came back at normal range, and my ultra sound showed that my uterus was "perfect" so my question is, why are my cycles so long?!? Ugh she suggested pregnatude, which I have been taking now for about 3 weeks, and I did ovulate this cycle according to my positive opks. So now I am 10dpo and feel like we timed everything perfectly and have absolutely no sign of pregnancy. I tested yesterday, (yes, very early) but was so saddened by a bfn. It's so discouraging to think about starting over, I have to start opk testing at cycle day 12 and did not get a positive until
Cd24, so it's stressful!!
I also have a ton if friends that just had babies, 3 this past week!!! I am overjoyed for them, but it completely makes my heart sink into my
Stomach. So, I know how you feel. I have not been going through this as long, but I don't think it matters how long you go through it 3 months or 3 years, it is still heart breaking and difficult.
If you don't mind me asking, how did your test results come out? Does your doctor think there is hope? I'm sorry if I'm being nosey, it's just
Hard to understand how infertility can happen to a perfectly healthy, young women!! I pray that you get your miracle baby someday!!
Lots of baby dust!!!
~Blair

 

[BabyBlessing1]

sorry it took me so long to reply.

My HSG was completely normal. No blockages or anything. And it is a good shape, no tilt.
I went to the office for the follow up to read all the blood work taken in February. It was all normal. Everything, except my DEAS. Its an androgenous hormone that women need, but mine is high. And it was about 80 points higher than the first result. He then referred me to an endocrinologist. The appiontment wasnt until april 29!! That is at the end of my current cycle! (I dont want another Dr to have to follow up with, this will be #4)

I spoke with the nurse of my RE, and told her i was frustrated with the whole time constraints, and she understood. They really are great in this office!! Its like they dont have a bad day!! She got my appointment moved up a week. Better than nothing.

It makes me nervous because in all the internet research I have done, (and they tell you not to do) it is a sign of a tumor. This really freaked my husband out! Big time!

In my line of work, I see many patients that come in for something major when they were getting somthing minor done and their Dr appt showed something abnormal.

So we are still TTC naturally.

I was actually 4 days late this cycle and I was getting excited, but knew that due to the HSG, it would probably be irregular, but I spent $33 on several different tests to make sure it was negative, only to start my period several hours later!

So we are looking at possibly trying IUI in June if things look OK with the endocrinologist.