never ending 2 week wait

[lditcher]

I have an 11 year old wonderful girl. I didn’t want anymore kids for years, because my daughter was sick with epilepsy. She, by miracle (thank god) grew out of it. Since she got better, I was more emotionally available to wanting more kids. I have been TTC for the past 3 years. I had 2 miscarriages at early stage of the pregnancy 5-7 weeks. I went to an IVF clinic and got all the tests done and they could not find anything wrong with me. (Thank god again).
My next period is expected on Thursday (2 days from today).
2 days ago I had nausea (not throwing up or anything), my boobs were hurting, and my husband said my nipples were darker. I got so excited because when he said it I thought to myself "oh, I am not imagining this".
Last night my symptoms started to fade. My bobs are not hurting as much, just a bit sensitive. My stomach is not hard, and no nausea
What does it mean?
I took a HPT and it was negative...
I am so disappointed
Did anyone ever experience this?

I think I am just traumatized by the 2 MC, when my pregnancy symptoms continued for months after the mc until they were completely gone. It was soooo hard for me that I had to go through therapy to make it stop

 

[Twinminator]

Didn't want to R&R hun, just want to say what an ordeal this all has been and how sorry I am that the road to motherhood is so much more difficult for some than for others

If it's any consolation, I too had all the pregnancy symptoms 2weeks before AF due (I was due on a Thursday too!) so thought I MUST be able to get an early response positive, but it was too early. Everyone told me I couldn't possibly know so early, even went to the nurse on the Monday before, fully expecting her to get a BFP but she didn't, she made me feel like a proper idiot. Then, Thursday morning, I went back to see her and she got a faint positive. (I was like "Haha, told you so" )
So despite early symptoms, it doesn't always mean an early positive result. Hang in there hun xxx

 

[dottymouse]

i had early symptoms the last 2months and thought i was pg, but both times AF arrived, i think it was because i had convinsed myself i was pg and thought every symptom was there, but this month i had no sore bbs, and thought well im not this month then, but did a test the day AF was due and got a BFP, i still dont have sore bbs, nor are they starting to grow (which im a bit disappointed about) good luck hope you get your BFP soon.