Hi Everyone! I just wanted to introduce myself - I'm so glad that I found this area I've been stalking for a couple of days now... & already feel less alone. I'm Zoe. I'm 19 and I have an almost 2 year old little boy & a 22 year old big boy who I call my fiancé. We're from Canberra - the capital city of Australia. I've seen so many posts here from people in a similar situation to me, so I apologise in advance if you've heard it all before but I need to get it off my chest! We have just decided that I'm going to come off birth control in the next couple of months and NTNP until January! I'm so excited but also so scared to TTC because of gender disappointment. I feel so horrible for having it ALREADY when baby #2 is only just being thought about. But I want a little girl so badly. I have only ever wanted two kids - a boy and a girl. But its SO disheartening when everyone I know has either two boys or two girls! it just seems to be the way things go.... you have to be pretty damn lucky to get one of each & I have horrible luck so I feel like there's no way I could be one of the lucky ones!!!!! & theres the people who keep telling me "you're going to have two boys for sure!" "I cant picture you with a girl" I sound so selfish & I feel so horrible. I do have one question for you mummas but..... since the day I found out my sons gender I decided any future kiddies I would keep the sex a surprise.... but since talk of TTC and this GD I'm starting to wonder if we should find out.... BECAUSE I'd rather have 20 weeks to adjust than give birth, find out its another boy and THEN be all sad and depressed. gosh, that sounds terrible but does anyone know what I mean? What would you do? Thanks for listening!