Let me preface by saying how grateful I am to be pregnant, but lately I’ve started to doubt how I’m going to raise another baby. I have three and already stretched to the limit mentally, physically, financially etc. I’ve found myself snapping at my other babies lately out of pure frustration. This pregnancy has been hard. I’ve fought HG again and had absolutely no energy. Some days I truly struggle to get out of bed. My husband isn’t the most supportive of people and I’m the sole breadwinner, do the majority of the household chores, cooking, making lunches etc. he doesn’t work, just sits at his PC and Xbox all day and night. i wanted this rainbow baby so bad but now that I have it I’m worried I can’t cope with another. I’ve never really struggled with mental health issues before but I’m starting to get this niggling voice in my head telling me I can’t do it and it worries me. I can’t mention it to my providers because I expressed I wasn’t having a good week (on their depression score) with my previous pregnancy AND THEY SENT CPS TO MY DOOR TO CHECK UP. CPS went on their way after interviewing me and seeing there was no issues, but I only scored borderline - not even enough to score as depressed. So I don’t trust the medical professionals enough to speak to them. anyway, there’s my little rant. I’m tired, feeling alone in parenting and just over it right now.