I don't feel like I'm coping. I've got a history of quite severe mental health problems and I got unexpectantly pregnant. I was on mood stabalisers and antidepressants. Gave birth 4 days ago. Difficult pregnancy and I was induced due to pre-eclampsia. Traumatic labour, baby got distressed. Managed to deliver him naturallly shortly after being prepped for a c-section. Breast feeding isn't going well. Struggles to latch on and stay on. He has jaundice and a possible problem with his testicles. I'm having black thoughts,not about my beautiful baby, about me. Urges to self-harm and stuff. I've slept so little. I feel so ill. I feel like a complete failure.