Maybe I should be talking to a counselor about this, but lately I have been having overwhelming thoughts of, "Okay....what's next?"
I'm married, I'm pregnant....I always wanted both of things. Now what? Does that make sense? I spent my life trying to do things to get away from my reality and now that I have nothing to run from, it freaks me out beyond belief. I now have a marriage to uphold, and a child who is my life's responsibility. I think the reality of it all makes me so nervous because I don't know if I will measure up.
I beat myself up when I'm not the best wife I can be. I freak out when I don't even "feel" pregnant right now. I have lost weight and my "bump" is barely recognizable. I just want another ultrasound. I just want to see the baby again and know he or she is okay.
Anyone else ever feel this way? I feel horrible even writing it.
I'm married, I'm pregnant....I always wanted both of things. Now what? Does that make sense? I spent my life trying to do things to get away from my reality and now that I have nothing to run from, it freaks me out beyond belief. I now have a marriage to uphold, and a child who is my life's responsibility. I think the reality of it all makes me so nervous because I don't know if I will measure up.
I beat myself up when I'm not the best wife I can be. I freak out when I don't even "feel" pregnant right now. I have lost weight and my "bump" is barely recognizable. I just want another ultrasound. I just want to see the baby again and know he or she is okay.
Anyone else ever feel this way? I feel horrible even writing it.