Obsessed and terrified.

[Maze]

Today I am feeling so terrified. Everything so far in this pregnancy has gone well, yesterday we got to see the baby and they had a heart beating away. As I was leaving the ultrasound room I asked "And they are measuring at 7 weeks?" I don't know why I did, overly curious I guess. The tech then said "actually, more like six weeks." So I was measuring a week behind. At first, I wasn't so worried, more annoyed that maybe I really am a week earlier than my dates would suggest. I have been really sick the last week and a half and the idea of another week of sickness was not inviting.

So I googled (I know) measuring 6 weeks at 7 weeks and almost all the old threads I found about it ended badly. Suddenly, I was filled with a new dread. I was looking for reassurance that the baby would just catch up and my dates wouldn't be wrong, instead I was instantly fine with the idea of being sick an extra week if it meant that my baby measuring behind didn't signify a bad thing.

I have never lost a baby after seeing their heart beat.

I manage to calm myself down yesterday, deciding that it was not a transvaginal ultrasound and this early on that can make getting proper measurements more difficult.

But this morning was the first morning in over a week that I hadn't woken up needing to immediately vomit. Now I can't think of anything else, I've been sitting here crying quietly all morning and fearing the worst.

I want so much for everything to be OK, I wish I hadn't asked about the baby's measurements.... although I am sure waking up without vomiting would still have me worried.

I confided in my mom over the phone and she just yelled at me and told me I was going to worry myself into a miscarriage.

Just feeling really alone right now.

 

[angel2010]

I am sorry you are going through this scare. I hope you were wrong on your dates, or that bubs is just a bit small and will catch up.

 

[baileybubs]

I'm sorry they freaked you out Hun, try and remember that they can't be perfectly accurate with their measurements when they do a scan and all babies do grow at different rates.
They wouldn't give me and early scan but when I had my 12 week scan they actually dated me almost a week behind what I thought, and as I had been ttc I knew the exact date I ovulated so was sure I shouldn't have been behind.

Now she's growing perfectly, and my fundal height measurements are actually slightly larger than they expect so she's clearly caught up now!

Hope all is well Hun and try not to panic!

 

[SusieRose]

Aww Maze I know how you feel, every change in your body is another thing to worry about. This time round I knew my dates right down to lmo and the date time we had intercourse and baby concieved bcos oh works away. Because of my history and my treatment I had regular scans, 6weeks baby measure 5+2, at 8 measured 8+2, at 10 measured 10!! Then a week later measured only 10+3 then at my dating scan when I knew I was 12+1 baby measured 12+6 so its all different. Your symptoms will come and go and just to be cruel you might find like me that it will be when you decided to spot, I've had it all from light spotting to full on bleeding through my clothes and little baby still going strong. You have seen your baby alive that's brilliant,that means the risk has gone down considerably. Just talk to people when you're feeling worried rest and try and remain positive. Xxx