****October Testing Thread**** Pumpkin BFP Patch

[Deethehippy]

So sorry @Deethehippy those lines looked so good!

Sorry I never updated a couple of weeks ago, I had those really strong lines at 9dpo, very faint lines at 10dpo then BFN and AF started at 11dpo, it really knocked me mentally so I didn't get on to update.

This cycle i am on CD13, I always ovulate on CD14 but for some reason my temps have been super high the last few days more like post ov temps then pre ov so I'm really confused.

Hopefully FF can still get an accurate reading on Ovulation for me.
I've been feeling really hesitant to even try this month. So many chemicals in a row is really hard to go through. I'm not sure if the chemicals are worse or the many months in a row without a line at all.

Anyway sorry to be a downer and hope for lots of BFP this month for all of us! I will be testing around the 20th I think

I totally understand after month after month of chemicals too. I think it's worse than BFN's because you get your hopes up so much and then it all crashes down like an evil roller coaster ride. Big hugs to you..I hope the future brings us both a miracle rainbow.

 

[Nima]

Sorry dee and lightning! So devastating.

I am not sure we'll be trying at all this cycle. It seems like everything is off, our donor is working a lot, my cycle is still unclear and my wife is now sick so I can't leave baby with her. I guess I just need to let this month go and take it as an opportunity to understand my cycle better.

 

[Deethehippy]

Sorry dee and lightning! So devastating.

I am not sure we'll be trying at all this cycle. It seems like everything is off, our donor is working a lot, my cycle is still unclear and my wife is now sick so I can't leave baby with her. I guess I just need to let this month go and take it as an opportunity to understand my cycle better.

I'm sorry it seems you will miss this cycle. Maybe it's an opportunity to relax and do some healthy things and 'prepare' your body a bit for next cycle. I hope you can get to try again soon and your wife feels better.

 

[FTale]

@Nima Hugs my friend. It is hard skipping a cycle. All the what if’s but trying when it’s next to impossible can bring on way too much stress. I hope your wife gets well soon and your cycle maps out nicely with donors availability next go round.

 

[FTale]

@Lucy3 Here are my negative tests. Assisting my younger sister with ttc at the moment. Really helping me take the focus off my own journey a bit. Sent these as bfn examples lol

 

[Lucy3]

@Nima its so hard letting a cycle go. Hope the break brings some freedom from the constant checking, worrying etc of ttc. And hope your baby is feeling better soon

@Lightning7 i also think having lines disappearing each cycle is harder than none. It’s when they get your hopes up then bam. Gone. Hope you’re ok

@FTale thats exciting you’re helping your sister with ttc! She’s lucky to have your expertise! Keep testing and posting your pics!

Think it’s o day today or maybe yesterday. Only got a bd in at cd11 so 2-3 days before so not great odds but still in with a chance

 

[AlwaysTheAunt]

Here is this mornings bfn - 10dpo felt all the emotions yesterday, anger, frustration, sadness. Just feeling out again this cycle. (Yes i know its early but this is the 12th month ttc and im just having all the feels).

 

[Lucy3]

Oh I’m sorry alwaystheaunt. 12 months is a big milestone - I’m so glad you have started the process of trying to work out if there’s something you can do to help. Did you get a line at 10dpo with your dd?

 

[AlwaysTheAunt]

I didnt get any lines until 12dpo so i try to hold hope. With her i couldnt even touch my boobs they were so sore. Also had cramping and one bright red spot the morning of 12dpo.

 

[FTale]

@Lucy3 FX it works. Some ppl purposely stay a lil away from O day with swaying. So getting preggers is still a great possibility.

@AlwaysTheAunt Hugs. Remember hitting the 12 month mark. Praying your bfp is just around the corner.

 

[Bevziibubble]

Here is this mornings bfn - 10dpo felt all the emotions yesterday, anger, frustration, sadness. Just feeling out again this cycle. (Yes i know its early but this is the 12th month ttc and im just having all the feels).

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I've got everything crossed for you

 

[Nima]

I'm sorry @AlwaysTheAunt, holding out hope is so hard after so long. A bfp will eventually surprise you though, I hope this month!

Thank you ladies for you kind support. It really warms my heart that women I have never met give me and understand me so much. I will try and take this month as a mental break.

 

[Bevziibubble]

I'm sorry @AlwaysTheAunt, holding out hope is so hard after so long. A bfp will eventually surprise you though, I hope this month!

Thank you ladies for you kind support. It really warms my heart that women I have never met give me and understand me so much. I will try and take this month as a mental break.

 

[salamander91]

I'm sorry @AlwaysTheAunt, holding out hope is so hard after so long. A bfp will eventually surprise you though, I hope this month!

Thank you ladies for you kind support. It really warms my heart that women I have never met give me and understand me so much. I will try and take this month as a mental break.

 

[salamander91]

Here is this mornings bfn - 10dpo felt all the emotions yesterday, anger, frustration, sadness. Just feeling out again this cycle. (Yes i know its early but this is the 12th month ttc and im just having all the feels).

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Sorry for the bfn Fingers crossed for tomorrows test. I've been trying on and off since June 2019. It's hard

 

[AlwaysTheAunt]

Sorry for the bfn Fingers crossed for tomorrows test. I've been trying on and off since June 2019. It's hard

It is so hard im so grateful to have this safe space to vent (and also not risk people knowing me in real life lol). All you ladies here just get it. People in my everyday life who know have just told me to relax or dont really want to talk about it or just plain dont understand. (The whole 'he looks at me and i get pregnant' comes to mind...).

 

[salamander91]

It is so hard im so grateful to have this safe space to vent (and also not risk people knowing me in real life lol). All you ladies here just get it. People in my everyday life who know have just told me to relax or dont really want to talk about it or just plain dont understand. (The whole 'he looks at me and i get pregnant' comes to mind...).

Yeh I completely get it. I never had trouble conceiving before so it's been really tough and my family and friends don't really get it.

 

[salamander91]

9dpo and bfn this morning.

 

[BabyBrain80]

Yeah this place is a life saver. I've said it many times before that I am so grateful to have all you ladies. I can talk to various friends/colleagues about our losses and our tfmr but they don't really understand. I never had trouble conceiving before but this last year has been very different and I can't really talk about it. I also think some of my friends think I'm crazy for continuing to try...my body is trying to tell me something apparently. But the consultant said just because we had a problem last time doesn't mean it will happen again, there is a chance but its the same as anyone.

I have a colleague who is almost half way through her pregnancy and I've found it quite hard. I only go into the office like once a week and work the rest at home and in some ways its to avoid all the baby chat. The girl is very thoughtful and messaged me separately to tell me about her gender reveal party and that she understands if I don't go etc. She really is lovely.....it makes me sad though that she does think of these things, I don't want her feeling bad just cos of me. But I am grateful. ANYWAY, they found out at the party that the baby is a girl and I am hugely relieved! Is that bad? I feel like I can suddenly cope better now and share in her happiness knowing it's not a wee boy. I hope this feeling continues!

I told my OH yesterday about this^^^ and I felt a bit emotional. We had a cuddle and a wee chat, I told him how hard I find every day and that I can't stop thinking about what happened. He told me about sitting in his van the other day and a song came on that got him a bit upset. He started crying a bit and told me that just because he doesn't talk about it that doesn't mean he's forgotten or it doesn't hurt still. My OH isn't someone who cries The only time was over our little one boy. So as much as it hurts to see him upset it also helps to know I'm not alone in my heartache. I sometimes think I should be over it by now.

Anyway, so sorry for that long post! Thanks for letting me write about it xxx

 

[BabyBrain80]

@Deethehippy so very sorry for the bfn sending love and hugs

@hellojello25 good luck!

@babymoma89 ttc is a hard journey

@AlwaysTheAunt Wishing you lot's of luck and baby dust there is still time! It's easy to expect to see something early when so many people post 8dpo faint lines and get a bfp but realistically I dont think its that common. You still have time xx

@Lightning7 your cycle might be a little wonky after your chemical? I hope your ovulation has been pinpointed by now and good luck x

@FTale looking forward to seeing more test pics...hopefully with a nice line! It's nice to have someone on the same journey and it distracts you a little bit too x Good luck x

@Lucy3 did you get another BD in? Good luck, we are close in ovulating again! xx

@Nima sorry you are missing this cycle, it wont be long and wishing you lots of luck for the next one x

I hope I've not missed anyone. I'm really bad at posting, I pop by and read but get distracted and don't reply in time.

afm, cd16 (that's what I'm going with) and it must be about ovulation time.
CD14 opk was almost same as control - BD late pm
CD15 opk was darker than control
CD 16 opk is a bit darker still - BD am
I assume ovulation is today...