On to month 18...

[Shedevil18]

AF arrived this morning as I knew she would. We didn't DTD AT ALL during ovulation this month... it was a stressful month..

We are now going onto month #18 TTC... starting to feel like a failure that I will never be able to have kids. I am suppose to have an appointment with a specialist in May but when I call they tell me she has "personal" things going on so things are on hold... so lord knows when I will actually get in to see her...

I am just so beyond frustrated with my body and not knowing what is going on....

I have been tracking everything (OPK's, DTD, pg tests etc) since January to bring with me... if I ever get in to see her...

Just a waiting game here for me...

 

[Hopeful.89]

I feel your frustration - TTC for 13 months and not one BFP.

Have you had your thyroid levels checked. Only reason I ask is because after 13 months of TTC I found out mine is lazy and not performing optimally and it can have a huge effect on the reproductive system, I am hoping in the next 3 months we are successful once my levels balance. I was within normal range, but not ideal for TTC.

Sending positive thoughts your way!

 

[Shedevil18]

I have an under active thyroid. I have been on meds for it for 8-10 years and every time I get my blood done it is always normal.

 

[Hopeful.89]

I have an under active thyroid. I have been on meds for it for 8-10 years and every time I get my blood done it is always normal.

Do they give you the actual number? For a long time my GP just kept saying my level was "normal" but it was hypo for TTC.

 

[Shedevil18]

well every doctor is different with the "levels"
She said normal was between 13 and 19 and I usually sit between 15 - 16 so smack dab in the middle of the "normal range"

I had blood work done a month ago roughly and she tested all my horomones, iron, thyroid etc and I never got a call back saying to come in so I am assuming everything was normal?

I just hate the waiting game to get in to see a specialist

 

[Hopeful.89]

hmmm....Must be a different way of measuring your thyroid compared to mine. For me and most of what I have heard is normal range is between .5-5 - For conception ideal is between .5 -2, I would always ask for the level after you have your tests done just to be sure. hope that helps. It is a very frustrating journey to TTC! Good Luck to you.

 

[Hopeful.89]

I hear you on the waiting for a specialist - I only just got referred after over a year of trying and will have to wait another 4 months before I get an appointment with a specialist.

 

[dinosaur2010]

Didn't want to read and run and i hope this gives you some encouragement (when I was ttc #1 I was constantly googling long term ttc successes) we tried for 29 months for our first and we had unexplained. Had all checks done, sperm check, bloods, the dye up my tubes test etc all clear. It just took us that bit longer.
Keep hopeful- some people just need a bit more time to get there. My doctor said it was like rolling a 6 on a dice- some get it straight away, some have to try and try.

 

[Shedevil18]

Still waiting for appointment...

When I call for an update the receptionist huffs and puffs in my ear... if you don't like answering questions, then dont work there lady! Some people really want a family and need help...

 

[dgirl]

That's so frustrating. There should be someone they can refer you too if this doctor isn't available until who knows when. I hope they get you in soon...or you get your BFP first!

 

[Shedevil18]

With the way i am feeling... I'm not gonna hold my breathe for a BFP....

 

[Timetotry]

I would ask for a referral to a different clinic or different doctor.
18 months is a long time (I hear ya, we are at 22 months) l. The waiting is brutal!

 

[Shedevil18]

I don't know what to do... still nothing from the clinic...

 

[sarahuk]

Get another clinic!

AND...dont give up hope.

I waited three years for my first. I was convinced I was completely broken. I thought Id never have kids. Then he must have reset something I had an unexpected bfp when he was 5 months.

TTC is a horribly hard emotional journey. And I feel your pain Ive been there, but haev faith that your body will bring you what you crave honey, it will I promise. And when it does youre going to love that little baby with your entire soul.

DONT GIVE UP!!!! X

 

[Shedevil18]

It's just so discouraging... I feel like I am not being taken seriously cause I am only 30... like I should just be able to pop out the babies with no issues... UGH!

Sorry... I am just beyond frustrated, sad, emotional, everything with this whole process

 

[sarahuk]

Dont be sorry!! Its completely understandable. Have you decided what to do about the Dr? x

 

[Shedevil18]

I called my family doctor back and told them what is going on with this specialist she sent me to and asked her to send me to someone else. so ... waiting again...

 

[sarahuk]

Hopefully this wait isnt as long! x

 

[Shedevil18]

Yea I am hoping too... I hate waiting

 

[Shedevil18]

OMG... I just got a call from my doctor... My Specialist appointment is next Tuesday May 12th!!! I am so flipping excited!!!