On to month 18...

[hoverboard1]

Just keep fighting. I was on Depo for over three years. My husband and I decided to try for a baby and it ended up taking us 18 months as well to get pregnant. We were actually two days away from seeing a fertility specialist when we got the BFP. I remember all the frustration and heartache that AF brought me, but we just kept at it and now we are expecting. Sometimes it just really takes time.

 

[sarahuk]

It really does! x

 

[Shedevil18]

I just feel like its never going happen

The dye test is suppose to make you more fertile for 3 months after and still nothing...

I am currently CD11 and was a BFN yesterday

We DTD 2 days before ovulation, the day of and the day after so who knows what my chances are

 

[Shedevil18]

AF arrived 2 days early... getting really bummed now and just want to give up

 

[wantingagirl]

Hugs Hun I'm onto month 16 with a loss in January this year. It's so hard I hope we all get there in the end

I don't usually delve into ttc sections anymore as everyone comes and goes with their bfp fx Hun!

Xxx

 

[Shedevil18]

On to month 23...

 

[sarahuk]

How is it going hun x

 

[Shedevil18]

AF was 3 days late this month but still showed her ugly face

I'm done... totally done. Cant deal with the disappointment anymore

 

[sarahuk]

Dont give up honey...thats the only sure fire way to never achieve your journey xx

 

[Shedevil18]

I just cant take not seeing a BFP can't handle the disappointment and heart break
I just feel like its never going to happen

 

[krissie328]

Hey hun. I've read through here several times but never commented. It took dh and I 8 years to conceived our ds. It's so so hard but we did take several breaks where we ntnp to just stay sane. There is no shame in how you feel as infertility is very isolating and painful. If you ever need to talk feel free to contact me.

 

[Shedevil18]

Thanks krissie328... I just never thought it would take this long. Were on month 24 now... With the way my back is going, I wont be able to carry a baby if it takes much longer

 

[sarahuk]

It will come darling. We all go through moments of utter despair when LTTTC, but it all is worth it x

 

[Shedevil18]

and I know I am out this month... we only DTD the day before I got a positive OPK so I can not getting my hopes up this month either

 

[55comet555]

and I know I am out this month... we only DTD the day before I got a positive OPK so I can not getting my hopes up this month either

I keep telling myself the same thing tho. We only dtd
A few times this cycle and yet my hopes are so high. Ugh. But it only takes one to get the job done!

 

[sarahuk]

My little 16 month old was conceieved from one romp that cycle and was just outside my window so dont lose hope! Only takes once! x

 

[Shedevil18]

This has happened a bunch of times.. only able to do it a day or so before i get a positive OPK and nothing... so I am not getting my hopes up at all this cycle.

BFN yesterday and the day before.

Only thing different about this cycle is I had my thyroid meds up'd to a higher dosage

 

[Shedevil18]

Af arrived right on schedule...

 

[sarahuk]

Hon have they managed to get your thyroid under control? It could have been impacting.

I agree with a previous poster about some NTNP inbetween does help keep you from losing your mind. Have you thought about a cycle with that just to recharge?

Im so sorry your back is giving you issues. Whats going on there if you dont mind me asking? xx

 

[Shedevil18]

My thyroid has been under control for years. I just asked her to up it because I am feeling really tired no matter how much sleep I get. All my blood tests show it is within range. She up the dosage by 12.5mg.

My back is screwed. I was in a car accident in 2003. I had a CT scan in the summer and it showed that I am compressed discs and bulging discs. Plus I also have sciatica and there is nothing anyone can do. I have done therapy, chiro, massage, acupuncture, everything.

I am due to O in the next couple of days, so I am hoping we can BD tonight, tomorrow and the next day... heres to keeping my fingers crossed