I just wanted to share this with someone. I was reflecting over the last 9 months of our lives and further back than that and I'm in awe of how much our relationship has changed and grown and just how incredible our relationship is right now. We've never loved each other as much as we do right now and I think that its not just because we're about to have a baby. About 4 months ago we were in a pretty nasty place, he was gambling and lying about it and losing unimaginable sums of money - I've still not fully come to grips with how much money he lost... but now, even though now we're broke, we own nothing except the furniture in our apartment... we dont even have a car anymore... we're finally having a real relationship. When we first met he was 28 and very wealthy and I was only 19 and very impressed by what that wealth could buy and do for me. While we had lots of fun together going on5 star holidays, eating at expensive resturants, drinking LOTS of expensive wine etc it wasn't real... and that lifestyle I think really got in the way of us having a truely deep emotional connection Now we're still putting our lives back together after the s**t really hit the fan a couple of months ago and somehow we've never been happier to just be together. I find myself oddly grateful that he lost everything - its just unfortunate timing with the baby just around the corner, but I think we did need this to be able to love each other the way we do. Its like, all the noise and distractions have faded out of our relationship and all thats left is us and our new family. I also know him well enough to know that it wont take him long to find a way back to the top and we will have that financial freedom again, just right now things are beautiful and real and money is tight and we have each other and its nice to know that at the end of the day, all we need is love. I know that was quite a long post and not really all that pregnancy related (well... I'm pregnancy related being due in 10 days and all) Thank you to anyone who read that, I really just needed to share my thoughts.