I feel like I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm waiting to hear bad news, I'm waiting to see blood when I wipe. Never in a million years did I think I'd be this paranoid after my mmc. I've been having some cramps on my right side and my brain just keeps jumping to the worst possible scenario. I cant relax, I cant enjoy it. Am I going to continue to feel like this the entire pregnancy? Will it fade after my first scan. I just hate how negative I'm being how nothing anyone says to me is calming me down. I scheduled my first appointment for after I lost my twins so that maybe I would actually feel hopeful. Now I'm just anxiety ridden and cant believe I have to wait three more weeks. Sorry for the rant guys I just cant stop thinking about every possible thing that can go wrong and I dont want to be like this. I never used to be like this.