Well it has been 8 yrs since I have done all this baby stuff, and I am loving every minute of it, but I also find it bloody scary! You forget how much a baby relies on you and you are the only one who can get it right on their behalf! I am loving all the cuddles, but to be honest at first I was quite scared about putting him down to sleep of a night, it just scared me to go to sleep and not be aware of what he was doing.......I had him sleep beside me in our bed (a huge bed) the first night we were home, as I hated the thought of not being able to hear him breathe......I am getting better, but I am still prolonging putting him to bed after a feed and winding as I am loving the cuddles, and by the time I get round to putting him to bed, he is ready for his next feed therefore, I am sleeping very little during the night, and catching up during the day when Paul is here to make sure all is well! Tonight, I am planning on a bath, then feeding Alfie, putting him to bed at a reasonable hour, and cuddling up with Paul and getting a good nights sleep........we have a motion monitor under his matress, so if anything goes wrong after 15 seconds an alarm sounds, and that has set my mind at rest, but still, it is so daunting at first, you forget how vulnerable they are at this age. As I said, I have got a lot better, but was anyone else paranoid about sleeping of a night? I feel stupid posting this, but I remember feeling like it when I had Jade, but I had my Mum to reassure me back then too, now it is me on my own, as Paul just thinks I am nuts I know he is right, but I think it is natural too?