Petrified

[babysimpson]

Hi I think i've miscarried my 4th baby. Lost three last year and was told all the things that is in the thread "What not to say". We waitied a full year to let my body settle and I lost 2 stone in weight, ate healthily and did everything I was told to do.

Had a scan a week a go which showed a large blood clot as well as a sac and a pole. Been bleeding for the last 2 1/2 weeks but told not to worry and then we seen that the problem was the clot. On Friday afternoon i lost a lot which make me think it's a miscarriage. Had cramps for about 5-10minutes but that was it. This time is seems so different than every other time but I'm convinced that I've lost too much for it just to be the clot.

Got another scan today which was to see the baby's progress but not it's to confirm a miscarriage In 1 1/2 hours time, I find out whether I've lost yet again. I've been so scared that I've even thought about cancelling the scan and pretending nothing is going on. I don't want to face it.

I have all my symptoms still and they are still strong and I feel pregnant but I lost so much that it would be virtually impossible for allto be ok. Been through this before but this time seems a lot harder. Any tips on how I can prepare myself mentally? I had accepted it over the weekend and just did other things to ignore what was happening but now it's time I don't know what to do?

 

[annmc30]

so sorry your going through this and dont think there is anything u can do to prepare yourself hun but its best to have the scan to make sure everything is ok big hugs hun x

 

[kanga]

 

[ncmommy]

So sorry for you losses! Like PP said there is no way to prepare but it is better to know. Fx'd that everything is ok. Thinking of you!

 

[hippylittlej]

I hope that the scan gave good news and not bad

If it was bad news then I am so sorry. There are no words

 

[Jasiellover]

So sorry. I will be praying for you.

 

[camishantel]

you are in my thoughts hun...hopefully it is just the clot as they can bleed a lot

 

[Starry Night]

I hope it was good news. If not, I'm so sorry.

 

[Pippin]

So sorry hon, how did you get on?

 

[babysimpson]

There is nothing left adn when they did a test there was a very faint positive so hcg levels have dropped already. They gave me another test to take in 10 days time and it should be negative. OH got blood taken and I'm getting 4 sets of bloods taken in 6 weeks and in 12 weeks. They are testing us both for chromozome abnormalities and I'm getting tested for Lupus? disease and for clotting etc. We won't know the results til at least xmas time and not to get pregnant before they come back as I'm likely to lose it again.

Thank you for the support. I don't know why but it seemed easier this time round to accept it and we both even looked at the scan. Maybe it's because I've had a few now and the last one I was further along (13w 6d) so it was more horrific. I had to deliver in EPU and having contractions knowing that there would be no result was the worse thing I've had to endure.

 

[Cariad_bach]

Im so sorry hun xxxxxx

 

[BeautifulD]

I'm so so so so sorry hun

 

[doddy0402]

so sorry! take care of yourself.x