barefootnpreg
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Its hard for me to talk about this because I'm scared talking about it will somehow jinx me and make it happen but I need to know if anyone else is experiencing the same thing.
I've become obsessed with SIDS. I have to have my baby in sight of me at all times when I'm awake. I can't just leave him sleeping in another room. And when I'm sleeping at night I constantly find myself waking up to make sure he is still breathing. I'm neurotic about how my OH swaddles him and clothes him because any excess fabric scares me. I'm scared to carry him in his sling because his nose and mouth are too close to my shirt. I bother my poor baby boy in his sleep constantly because I can't tell if he's breathing so I have to touch his little chest which always makes him wake up.
Also, I've always been slightly OCD about cleaning. I hate to use the term OCD because I have a friend with real OCD and its much more severe than what I have, but ever since a bad relationship several years ago I've used cleaning as a way to control my environment and my emotions when everything else in my life is out of control.
So ever since giving birth I've been driving myself CRAZY because I can't keep the house in perfect order like I like it. It interferes with the time I spend with my baby. We had a really bad day a few days ago - the house was a wreck and my baby was super fussy. He wouldn't let me put him down, he cried all day so I had to sit on the couch and hold him but I couldn't put in enough energy into soothing him because all I could notice was that my carpet doesn't match my couch, and the carpet was covered with dog hair, and dishes were stacked in the sink, and my OH leaves his dirty socks under the coffee table. I mean, this stuff was giving me panic attack after panic attack and meanwhile my baby was just crying and crying and I couldn't do anything to make him stop.
I realized that day that there was something not quite right about my anxiety levels so thinking it could be related to postpartum depression I started researching online and came across several articles about postpartum OCD. This was the first time I had heard of it but my symptoms definitely match up.
Has anyone ever been diagnosed with this? I would love to talk to someone else experiencing the same thing.
I'm also curious what the treatment is as I'm definitely going to tell my doctor about it at my check up.
I've become obsessed with SIDS. I have to have my baby in sight of me at all times when I'm awake. I can't just leave him sleeping in another room. And when I'm sleeping at night I constantly find myself waking up to make sure he is still breathing. I'm neurotic about how my OH swaddles him and clothes him because any excess fabric scares me. I'm scared to carry him in his sling because his nose and mouth are too close to my shirt. I bother my poor baby boy in his sleep constantly because I can't tell if he's breathing so I have to touch his little chest which always makes him wake up.
Also, I've always been slightly OCD about cleaning. I hate to use the term OCD because I have a friend with real OCD and its much more severe than what I have, but ever since a bad relationship several years ago I've used cleaning as a way to control my environment and my emotions when everything else in my life is out of control.
So ever since giving birth I've been driving myself CRAZY because I can't keep the house in perfect order like I like it. It interferes with the time I spend with my baby. We had a really bad day a few days ago - the house was a wreck and my baby was super fussy. He wouldn't let me put him down, he cried all day so I had to sit on the couch and hold him but I couldn't put in enough energy into soothing him because all I could notice was that my carpet doesn't match my couch, and the carpet was covered with dog hair, and dishes were stacked in the sink, and my OH leaves his dirty socks under the coffee table. I mean, this stuff was giving me panic attack after panic attack and meanwhile my baby was just crying and crying and I couldn't do anything to make him stop.
I realized that day that there was something not quite right about my anxiety levels so thinking it could be related to postpartum depression I started researching online and came across several articles about postpartum OCD. This was the first time I had heard of it but my symptoms definitely match up.
Has anyone ever been diagnosed with this? I would love to talk to someone else experiencing the same thing.
I'm also curious what the treatment is as I'm definitely going to tell my doctor about it at my check up.