Drazic<3
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Hey girls,
Well, two days ago I got a faint line on an FRER. Today, I got a stronger line and a 'pregnant 1-2' on a digi. So, I guess I am pregnant!
When I first found out, I cried and cried. With joy, with fear, with excitement, with sadness. The feelings are overwhelming. However, since then I think every feeling has come over me. I am so very happy but so scared if I let myself believe this it our time, then if it goes wrong again the fall will be even harder.
There was even a slight tinge of regret, as horrible as that makes me sound. Am I ready? I was told to wait to try again until you could accept the fact that you could lose another baby but could deal with it. Honestly? If this goes wrong again I think it will kill me. I am terrified.
The mixture of feelings is so weird, but still the best Xmas pressie I have ever been given. I was just wondering how anyone else felt? Good results after a loss? Or for all the wonderful ttc girls after a loss who will be joining me VERY SOON in 2010 with healthy, happy babies.
I hope this doesn't make me sound bad, I just want this to be it so much and I am scared. I heard Will Young the other day and (embarrasingly for a metal head such as myself
) really though lots of the words summed it up. Especially;
'I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice is shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to lose you again'
and sticky, healthy 
all round.
Well, two days ago I got a faint line on an FRER. Today, I got a stronger line and a 'pregnant 1-2' on a digi. So, I guess I am pregnant!
When I first found out, I cried and cried. With joy, with fear, with excitement, with sadness. The feelings are overwhelming. However, since then I think every feeling has come over me. I am so very happy but so scared if I let myself believe this it our time, then if it goes wrong again the fall will be even harder.
There was even a slight tinge of regret, as horrible as that makes me sound. Am I ready? I was told to wait to try again until you could accept the fact that you could lose another baby but could deal with it. Honestly? If this goes wrong again I think it will kill me. I am terrified.
The mixture of feelings is so weird, but still the best Xmas pressie I have ever been given. I was just wondering how anyone else felt? Good results after a loss? Or for all the wonderful ttc girls after a loss who will be joining me VERY SOON in 2010 with healthy, happy babies.
I hope this doesn't make me sound bad, I just want this to be it so much and I am scared. I heard Will Young the other day and (embarrasingly for a metal head such as myself
) really though lots of the words summed it up. Especially;'I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice is shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to lose you again'
and sticky, healthy all round.
. Im right with you on the worried side of things though im trying to remain positive because we all deserve these bubs so badly its just so hard after having 2 miscarriages this year every cramp or twinge and im thinking oh shit!! FX'd for all of us chrimbo BFP'ers x x xsticky dust heading your way chicken x x x x lov caz x x x
