LynAnne
Mum to 2 Boys
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I'm currently 4w4d pregnant after falling pregnant the first month of TTC#2 and feeling so anxious and terrified of having another loss. I have a one year old son who was born in November 2016 but it took five losses in the space of thirteen months before we had him and I'm petrified of going through it all again for #2 - or not being able to cope and giving up on #2.
On our journey to DS I suffered from 3 chemical pregnancies between 4w - 5w2d, an ectopic which resulted in a laprascopic salpingectomy of my left tube at 8w and a MMC at 9w5d. Step one is patiently trying to get passed the time of my chemicals. Step two is having an early scan at 6weeks to rule out another ectopic at my EPAU and then from there it's just holding my breath until I get out of first trimester.
A part of me is trying to simply take strength in the knowledge that my body has had a successful pregnancy with a healthy boy at the end of it. I have had good strong pregnancy tests with 2/3 having test lines darker than control lines, the most recent one taken yesterday. But there is still a huge part of me that can't stop worrying or be excited yet. I'm just too aware of what could go wrong.
On our journey to DS I suffered from 3 chemical pregnancies between 4w - 5w2d, an ectopic which resulted in a laprascopic salpingectomy of my left tube at 8w and a MMC at 9w5d. Step one is patiently trying to get passed the time of my chemicals. Step two is having an early scan at 6weeks to rule out another ectopic at my EPAU and then from there it's just holding my breath until I get out of first trimester.
A part of me is trying to simply take strength in the knowledge that my body has had a successful pregnancy with a healthy boy at the end of it. I have had good strong pregnancy tests with 2/3 having test lines darker than control lines, the most recent one taken yesterday. But there is still a huge part of me that can't stop worrying or be excited yet. I'm just too aware of what could go wrong.