Hi, Recently found out I'm pregnant with our third. It was sort of planned.. We've gone through IVF previously, and we were thinking we'd use one of our frozen embryos for a May/June cycle this year, but after having unprotected sex on ONE cycle, I'm pregnant! My hubby doesnt really want a third, but I couldn't shake the not done feeling, so his said his happy enough to try for one more. I have a history a bad postpartum anxiety, which is eased by taking Zoloft (life saver). I'm obviously not taking right now (have been off it for around 6 months). Anyway, I also had a fairly traumatic time with my second born - he had silent reflux and the first 4 months were an absolute living nightmare (my son would cry for 6 hours at a time, and so would I). Still, I was initially feeling positive about falling pregnant. Then last night I happen to watch a video on YT where a blogger was talking about (in lots of detail) about her rough journey with postpartum anxiety and depression. I should not have watched it because it brought back some of the emotions I've previously felt, and now I'm really scared having a third was a huge mistake . I'm just worried now I won't be able to handle a third, or how they'll fit in with our family. Will I be disappointed if its another boy?! Are we ruining what we've already got by adding in too much stress... ugh, I just feel so unsure now. I guess I'm just looking for some positive reassurance from other mum's who have gone for a third. Is it as scary as it seems?!