I'm not sure what to do, sorry this is a bit of an essay I had my first day back at work yesterday. I had said throughout my pregnancy that I didn't really want to work full time, my manager wouldn't really have a proper conversation with me about it as she said I wouldn't know how I was going to feel when the time came. My idea then was to do a 3 day week, normal 9-5 day. I went in whilst on maternity leave to have a catch up and said this is what I wanted to do, and I didn't mind if that meant me having to drop down a grade, to which she said that as they really wanted me back she would accommodate me. The next time I went in she had obviously actually spoken to hr about it and said that she needed someone in my role full time, and it's come from above that all line managers must work full time (even though there are others in the directorate who don't) and that if I requested reduced hours then she would have to go through the process of advertising my position for the other 2 days a week which they would unlikely be able to recruit, (it's quite a specific role) and she had no monies to create a lower graded role for me as well as she still needs someone in my role. So at that point I kind of thought well maybe I'll just go back full time until I have my next LO. So started back yesterday and using leave to just do a 3 day week until Jan. then will be back full time. Well after yesterday I don't think I will cope. I have dogs to walk before work and had to get up at 5 am to be able to get to work on time, by lunchtime I had a massive headache, and was in tears when I got home as I do not cope well being tired. So now I'm thinking it would work best to do something like a 25 hour week over the 5 days and do 9:30-15:00. But from what my manager said it doesn't sound like this will be an option. Do you think I should have another chat with her and actually put in an application so at least I get a definite no, or should I just look for another job? If I do put in an application to reduce my hours I need to put what impact it will have and how I can lessen that impact, and I don't know what to put, or if it will make any difference anyway!