I am ready to move on.. It's only been a few days, but I feel like I am ready. I have never been big on the flesh/body side of death. By that I mean, I don't care to have an open casket, viewing, etc when I go. I've always felt the body is just a shell, and once the spirit leaves, the body is returned to dust as it were...
I struggled with my M/C - and it was horrid - but I have felt better as each day has passed. It's been nearly a week since I found out. On the way home from work I decided, that my little one could not make the little body it was given, work. The flesh of it, the body, was not healthy, so it chose to leave and wait for a better one, a healthy one. My little one's spirit is still up there - waiting for the healthier body - the one that will allow him or her to go full term and arrive happily into my loving arms. To snuggle with and love. The little one decided the body wasn't healthy and is waiting for a better one. Kind of like test driving a car - it wasn't good enough - so he/she is being patient.
So will I be. Just because the body failed, does not mean the spirit is weak - and - we will wait until the next time and try again. if that one is also weak, we will try again, and again, and again - until our dreams of being together finally are realized.
to my dearest little one - I will wait for you - and when God sees fit to send you to me in a healthy body, I will welcome you with open and loving arms. In the meantime, he will hold you close and warm, and when the time is right you will rejoin me. I will wait.
I look forward to that moment, and ultimately holding and nursing you in my arms.
I love you and will forever..
Mommy
I struggled with my M/C - and it was horrid - but I have felt better as each day has passed. It's been nearly a week since I found out. On the way home from work I decided, that my little one could not make the little body it was given, work. The flesh of it, the body, was not healthy, so it chose to leave and wait for a better one, a healthy one. My little one's spirit is still up there - waiting for the healthier body - the one that will allow him or her to go full term and arrive happily into my loving arms. To snuggle with and love. The little one decided the body wasn't healthy and is waiting for a better one. Kind of like test driving a car - it wasn't good enough - so he/she is being patient.
So will I be. Just because the body failed, does not mean the spirit is weak - and - we will wait until the next time and try again. if that one is also weak, we will try again, and again, and again - until our dreams of being together finally are realized.
to my dearest little one - I will wait for you - and when God sees fit to send you to me in a healthy body, I will welcome you with open and loving arms. In the meantime, he will hold you close and warm, and when the time is right you will rejoin me. I will wait.
I look forward to that moment, and ultimately holding and nursing you in my arms.
I love you and will forever..
Mommy
lovely, I feel much the same way about body and spirit.
