My LO is 11weeks and I've been living in hope that breastfeeding will "get better as she gets older" but I have given up hoping this is ever going to happen. She falls asleep at every feed with the effort and time it takes to get the milk - and even when she doesn't she'll feed for an hour or more (but most of the time just doing small sucks) and still seem unsatisfied. Everyone on this forum and people from NCT and LLL have been really supportive but this hoped for improvement just hasn't arrived. A few weeks ago I thought maybe my LO had started to feed better - her feeds didn't all last an hour and yet she seemed satisfied for a few hours BUT it hasn't lasted. All weekend she kept squirming and pulling off the nipple and wouldn't even take the bottle, when she did take something her wind was so bad she couldn't settle AT ALL, which gave me no time to express. I think this has really messed with my supply as today she fed for an hour on me, then 30 mins later took 3oz bottle and it looked like she would have taken more. I no longer believe that "as she gets bigger she'll be more able to suck effectively" or "it will just click" or anything else I've been holding on to over the past weeks. I'd like to feed exclusively expressed breast milk but I don't think I get enough when I pump. Just really depressed and can't believe that something I thought would be so wonderful has really brought me no pleasure.