I'm so sad today and I don't really have anyone in real life to talk to about this. I'm sitting here texting with my best friend about her first prenatal exam this morning and I'm so so sad. I'm so happy for her but I'm so jealous at the same time. I want to be doing what she's doing. Instead I'm sitting here feeling lost and miserable. She's pregnant with her fourth child. She's had two pregnancies now since we were pregnant with our almost 3 year olds together.
I'm mad at myself because I've been trying to lose weight. My husband and I started eating better, we take long walks 2-3 times a week. I go the the gym another day and walk on the treadmill, and I've only lost 6 lbs. I feel like a failure because, as usual, I am having a hard time staying motivated. But I know it could help, which makes me feel even worse.
My husband doesn't realize how awful this all makes me feel, and how sad. I am waiting on a call from my previous doctor to tell me if I had my thyroid tested in September and then I think I'll call the fertility specialist. I just worry though that he's going to say lose weight, and then I'll just be right back here.
I'm mad at myself because I've been trying to lose weight. My husband and I started eating better, we take long walks 2-3 times a week. I go the the gym another day and walk on the treadmill, and I've only lost 6 lbs. I feel like a failure because, as usual, I am having a hard time staying motivated. But I know it could help, which makes me feel even worse.
My husband doesn't realize how awful this all makes me feel, and how sad. I am waiting on a call from my previous doctor to tell me if I had my thyroid tested in September and then I think I'll call the fertility specialist. I just worry though that he's going to say lose weight, and then I'll just be right back here.
