Morning Girls I need to get this all off my chest, DH tried to sort me out but I think you are the only ones who will understand. This morning I woke up really depressed, every little thing like the cat being annoying and the house being messy just sent me into floods of tears. I was up for about 10 minutes before DH got up and I had already cried 3 times before he came down. He then saw I was upset and asked what was wrong which started me crying so hard I couldn't actually control myself. At one point, he handed me a glass of orange juice and I had to tell him to take it off me because it was all I could do to stop myself throwing it across the room. I really scared myself and I'm worried because DH goes away with work sometimes and if I get like that again I don't think I could snap myself out of it. I think I'm reacting to speaking to my best friend yesterday who is pregnant and due in 2 weeks, we started TTC at the same time and it only took her 3 months to conceive. I want to be happy for her and I put on a front when I speak to her but it kills me every time I even think about her. I am feeling so depressed and I can't imagine ever falling pregnant, I feel like my life's on hold and everything I do is just killing time between TTC. DH understands to a point but I don't think a man can really know what it feels like. I normally try not to show him how upset I am because it looks like the problem is a low sperm count so I don't want to make him feel any more guilty or upset than he already feels. I'm not really sure what else to say, just getting it off my chest helps a little and I know you will understand how I feel.