I originally went back just over a week after I miscarried but only for two days as complications occured and I've been off since November...still not quite there and have to go for physio and more surgery. I have a meeting with my Head today to discuss how I can come back in January which I really need to go to. Two of the doctors I've seen believe that the cause of the miscarriage was due to stress/cortisol hormone levels and tbh both me and my partner do as well...it was too much of a coincidence with what and when it happened. My Head has been fantastic but the deputy is a total mental case and needs to be committed. To cut a very long story short, the world revolves around him and his ego was more important than my life and the life of my child. He created drama and issues out of nothing and went against the risk assessment he did the day before we did it because I didn't want him to tell other people I and I told him I wanted nothing to do with him...he was annoyed that I was no longer bailing him out of the huge holes he kept digging! (He's incompetant and regularly fails vulnerable children because he only thinks of himself!) I don't know how to tell my boss that I can't work with him! I LOVE my job and I'm good at it (I know how arrogant that sounds)! I really want to go back and get back into it. Various staff have said that he is jealous of me and my ability and is "out to get me" but I'd be a voice alone as he talks to the person over the head and lies about people to bloster himself up and make others look less credible. I have text messages and emails evidencing his lack of professionalism and dates of his misconduct with regard to my pregnancy. I don't know how to first of all work with the person we hold responsible for Jesse's death and second of all run the risk of it happening again as we're ttc! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! And I'm scared of going in and screaming at the head who has been wonderful...or killing the deputy! Sorry for the rant!!! Love and Hugs to people!